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I'm a mummy to be - Week 5-6 (est)

2011-09-08T15:37:00.002+08:00

I'm Pregnant For about 5 - 6 weeks =)

29 Aug 11

I found out when we are deciding to book tickets for Taiwan in Mar 2012. So I went to get the pregnancy kits with my colleagues, Karen & Lina and tested positive =) I tested in the next morning and confirmed that it was positive. I have told his mum and my mum, they din look very happy as we haven went thru the customary ceromony.

By 2 Sep 11

Almost the whole dept knew I was pregnant as we, girls are quite close. However I haven break it to my boss and I plan to tell him after I see the gynae on 16 Sep 11.

The early symptons that I experience b4 I know im pregnant:

- Perky breasts

- Discharge

- Huge appetite

- Slight Belly

- Firm & Round "Ass"

- I feel "pregnant"

After I knew I'm pregnant and baby seems to signal me by:

- Obvious round belly

- Burping as and when esp during / after meal

- Average a 2/3 hours feeding to ease hunger

- Tired, sleeps is never enough

- Getting very emo

Some routines has change and added:

- applying tonic oil from CLARINS

- folic acid tablets from GP

- no more coke or cold drinks =( and alcholic drinks

- no more heels and wear flat shoes at all times

- no sleeping late nights

- be very careful when walking

8 Sep 11

So far, everything is smooth. Praise God for that and the effort that I can see Desmond has been putting in like preparing for the wedding ceremony and showing concern of my well-being. Whether the baby comes at the right time anot, I have no comments as what happen, happens. I have to remind myself to receive each day with gladness.

Anyway, today rashes broke out for no reasons and only get to apply the cream and let the skin rest and try not to take the med. Also, I just bought the book recommended by XZ - What to Expect When You're Expecting. I have read thru a few pages and it is really informative...

Happening in April 2010

2010-05-05T23:53:00.001+08:00

Time for my monthly updates.

1. Primary School Meet-up!

It has been since 5 years tt we din meet each other thou we planned for meeting but ended up postpone it. We are looking great from lil giggling girls to OL~ hahaz. Great to see her and we had a good time watching "How to Kill a Dragon".

2. Wedding Rings

We had bought our 2nd pair of wedding bands as des ' ring was mysteriously missing. So thanks to the loss, i got a bigger diamond in cheaper price as i bought it during my bday mth and additional 10% being the member. But i only managed to collect in April coz of the size.

*1st wedding ring vs 2nd wedding ring*

*our wedding bands*

3. Fruity Month

*Mega strawberries @ $9.80 per box in PPWC*

*even meeko knows this is good stuff*

*kiwi (yellow) in the season to0*

so meeko got her share too. & now she also like to eat cheese! i tot mouse eating it not a cat! becoz of the fruits & cheese that she is having, whenever now we open the fridge, she wld run and stand in front of the fridge and asking for the nom-noms with a loud 'meow' =_='''

4. Happy Birthday to May

*Welcome to the 25 club*

*I got invited by her to join her in the ettusais function*
Thank Q.

*superb macroons @ TWG even my mum likes this than bakerzin's*

and not long after i fallen seriously sick for a week or so. And topping up, my voice is lost for a week. Damm frighten. Then came the bad news from my medical report which u alr have known. Anyway....

4. Kitten Joe

Des has found a white, mixed persian kitten @ the same place where meeko was found. We always wanted to have a companion for Meeko as she is very poor thing when all of us are not at home often while she is locked in the room alone. So we decided to keep him and named him Joe!

Joe was separated from Meeko for a few days to let Meeko adapted that there is somebody ard but not threatening to her position in the house.

But she is not happy at all. She has been staying in my room and on my bed ike sitting in her throne in fear of losing it. She also stays by my side very closely and looking very sad and dearly at me.

Anyway, one day i decide to show Meeko her new buddy. Who knows she was hissing him and refuse to accept him the very moment. This is normal for cats with new cat frd, especially she is our 掌上明珠 (pearl in our eye)。

*meeko met (hissed) joe joe*

*eventually, joe joe hissed back after meeko don accept his presence*

*Guess what, meeko is scared of him & decide to monitor Joe from far*

This act will go on for months until they accept each other. Just like when you got your 1st child thn your 2nd child comes along. Either your 1st child readily accept and take care of her/his lil siblings or hate it at 1st coz mummy & dadddy don love her/him anymore.

Cute rite! He loves you to cuddle him & would sit on your lap for his stomach rubs and kisses.

Sad news is Meeko's unacceptance went x-treme when she started to pluck her furs out due to stress. I saw my working table is full of meeko's fur when i came home. And my sister screamed her lungs out that no more cat in the house (afterall this is not my owned house) Reluntantly, i have to let it go.

We managed to find a cat owner living nearby des' house (juz 2 blks away) with the help of the aunty who feeds the kitties at the void decks. The owner loves him but Joe often sneak out to where he is found (probably to wait for us?) I saw him one time when i left for wk @ des' He was covered with dirt again.

So here some of the last pictures i took before he went off.

*bleah, i win, meow!*

I took this after Joe Joe has left a few days. She knew that her 心头大恨 (enemy) is gone forever, she is bubbly again and start to give me love bites & scratches again!

5. Meet up with buddy - Jacq

Balloon Sinuplasty

2010-04-27T18:55:00.003+08:00

You must wonder what is this right?

It is an endoscopic surgery that treats the blocked nasal sinuses. It is an hour surgery. And i might be going for it coz...
- my CT scan report was not so good. My right nose is blocked with mucus.
- required long term medication w/o going for the surgery but will affect the baby if i pregnant.
- if im pregnant, the symptons will get worse if i did not go for surgery.

I concluded...im damn suay la. When i was young, my mucus stucked in my ear now my nose. blocking my airways (tt y i got mirgarine kind of headache) Doctor said it is due to my bone structure and the environment contributed the developement of this problem. *head-desk*

Luckily, i quitted and say bye bye to the sick building.

Unluckily, i quitted and i need $6K (after medisave) for the surgery.

Feel like saying the F word. Just need to try the new medication for a month to see if there is improvement. If not i would need to go for the surgery.

Till then =X

I tendered my Resignation

2010-04-22T22:19:00.002+08:00

I tendered my resignation yesterday. of course with a heavy heart.

it is not easy to tender when this place is where it's my birth place to grow from a lil girl to a Monster (as claimed by des to my boss' trainings).

I love the place where i work called Pasir Panjang Wholesale Centre. Amazing fresh fruits and stuff, friendly/nasty tenants, idiots contractors, demanding clients, supporting/sabo-ing colleagues and of course the time i spent lesser with my friends and family are forgo.

But i tendered without a job. After much thinking and seriously sick & going w/o a voice for more than a week, i think i need a lil long break to get myself back in shape.

Bye PPWC.

Happenings in March 2010

2010-04-05T00:04:00.024+08:00

Beside work sux, March is a great month!

Here we go:

1) Meeting my 1st half the mentor, Jason.

2) Our 2-years Anniversary

3) Sean's farewell @ Paulaner

*Great place to hang out*

*Great homemade beers, food & live bands!*

*XR owns 2 unusual cards in his wallet under his name.*

4) New Burberry

*my 1st burberry - haymarket clutch bag in 2008*

*my 2nd burberry - check bag in 2009*

*lastly my 3rd burberry - check wallet for this yr birthday & hopefully counting*

5) My 25th Birthday Celebration

*with BFF, Liting*

*with PPWC's colleagues*

*with buddies & darl @ st james, boiler room*

till then~

What I Want to Acheive in Life?

2010-04-04T22:31:00.003+08:00

My poly lecturer told us to wrote a letter during the lesson. He then sent it to us in 14 Feb 2008.
I would like to documented here as i do not want the letter lying in the box turning yellow without letting myself know my direction once again.

Friday 13th Jan 2006

Money! This word is getting more & more visible in me. I'm currentl;y 20 years old.l I have been working real hard for the past 3 years to support my family. Feeling so heartache whenever i see my parents stressing and working hard for the family.

I wanted to be a vet when i was young as this way, i can help the sickly animals. Thou this dream will never been fulfiled but i definitely hope i can contribute more when i am older.

When i graduated from polytechnic, i will make use of my dipolma cert and pursue a job in Facilities Management. Maybe after 3 to 4 years of working experience, i woild take up a degree to further my career path. As from my parents, i know that education is important whether in work or home. Also, probably after 5 years when i received this letter, i able to provide a comfortable home for my parents & my own family.

I also wish i could help more in protecting stray animals or SPCA when i an older. It is so disheartening to read reports or hear anything about the poor animals.

Thou things that i want to achieve may sound so ... simple but it is something i'm wishing for.
SO AM I ABLE TO DO IT? We shall see in 5 years times...

Lifang @ 13 Jan 06, 9.50AM

Malacca Road Trip & Chloe 来拜年

2010-04-03T01:51:00.003+08:00

I did this sometime ago. Forget to post!

I went for a road trip organised by my colleagues to Malacca with my manager, BH being the tour guide. We gathered in the early morning and drive-in to JB. This is my 1st road trip!

We popped by for Dim Sum near her JB home. The Dim Sum was sedap! Especially the Phoenix Claws and Fried Brinjal filled with Meat. I started to like brinjal for the 1st time. We stopped by her house for a quick chat with her family then we headed of to Malacca!!

Driving there will take about 2 hours or lil more. But we reached there in 90 mins or less because of my colleague superb driving speed. We arrived safely to the famous street in Malacca.

It is alr afternoon after the scary ride and we were all hungry. BH recommended the restoran for their famous chicken & rice balls. There are a lot restorans selling the same dish. But this is the oldest shop selling it.

*The Q was damm long and crowded if you notice.*

*Here come the famous chicken & rice balls.*

*Loves the riceballs coz it is balled into bite sized & you can just eating it plainly.*

*It says "Currently very angry, Do not Get Close =X"*

After the hearty meal, we walked along the street, visted the temple and headed for chendol. It was a very hot day. The 7 of us were too full and tired to carry on. So we headed to...

We took the package - RM$49.00 for a foot & shoulder massage for 60 mins & - RM$69 for 90 mins.

I took the 60 mins package and started with soaking your legs in HOT water. Yes, it's like the hot water you make your tea. Hahz

I was telling my colleague, XR "Just soak your legs, you will adapt shortly." when he struggled with the hot water.

When it was my turn, I was =_=''' - it is very hot and he "comforted" me with the same words. Seriously i dont know it was that hot and the feeling only subsides after a good 15 mins.

*Keeping my smile while my legs being cooked.*

*i was shocked when the massage lady did this on XR's back*

*Had my own share of pain! But it's very shiok.*

*Afterwhich, we settled for SATAY LOK LOK for dinner.*

Do you know the satay gravy/soup for the lok lok will not be change at all only occasional adding of more soup by the worker. The same pot of soup will continue to be used for the entire day. Being a typical Singaporean, my stomach skipped and rolled.

But heck care la! when you see all the trays of food. The round red bak kwa (uncooked before dipping into the satay sauce) were SEDAP.

*17 stixz for my share - not the lowest eater*

*80 stixz*

*We also concluded that the stixz were also... based on the condition of the stixz.*

We went back to the same street where we had our chicken & rice balls. The street transformed into a busy street with many stalls / push cart and events already set up for on-lookers and tourists like us.

*The real DING DING DANG.
The hard & sweet ones unlike the soft/chewy ones we had in SG*

*End of the Road Trip to Malacca*

Next was my god-daughter, Chloe came to my house with Meeko looking fearfully. Coz meeko dislikes children and always hide under the bed and hissing whoever kids come near her.

*Meeko was well-behaved tt day she visited, guess she know it's my lil sweet heart coming*

*Awww - Hope to see her more often.
My heart melted when she called me God Ma tt day.*

Till then...

Random - Burberry Trip

2010-03-07T21:54:00.006+08:00

Guess where i went today!

*Time for my 3rd Burberry item from Des.*

Not having a big celebration this year for my birthday, probably with my girlfriends and des..

Anyway...my wedding date is confirmed this year! More information will be update in the Guest List in FB later for confirmation of the seats =)

How To Bathe Your Kitty (lifang version)

2010-03-06T16:45:00.002+08:00

Hey Guys! I was preparing the bath for Meeko the other day, suddenly i have this idea popped in my head! Why not i have a tutorial to show how to bathe a cat since i have a perfect model to demo.

Frequency:
Meeko has her bath at least once forthnightly since she is an indoor cat. Occassionally you can use wet tissues to wipe fur / leg areas.

Duration:
15 to 20 mins

Getting Ready:
1) Cat Shampoo
2) 1 Big towel
3) 1 Small towel / Sponge
4) 1 pail of warm water (est. 3 litres)

Here's How:

Step 1.

I will carry Meeko to the bathroom where she always poo poo. A place where she is not unfamilar and scared of. Remember to eliminate all possible escape routes until the bath is over.

Usually Meeko will know it's bath time after seeing the pails of water. So rmbr to bring the cat in first before you prepare the bath. Cat is intelligent & good memory of she does and even we do- she will be running for her life probably hiding under the bed or other low corners while you are preparing the bath.

Step 2.

I will start to wet Meeko's body area by pouring small scoops of water from the pail. She may start to run around the toilet to find way to escape and meow for pleading. I will calm her down by talking to her.

Then follow by adding the shampoo on her body & leg/tail area.

Remember not to have the water to reach the eyes and ears. So for the head part, i will use the small towel / sponge to soak with water and wet gently ard the head & under the chin area. Then i will wipe her face.

Step 3.

Rinse out. Make sure all the shampoo is wash out.

If Meeko's mood is okay, she will allow me to stand her up for throughout washing of her under-body.

Then wipe her body using the small towel/sponge to absorb the drain out the excess water for easier drying afterwards. Use the big towel to towel-dry her.

*Meeko: "Are you done?$^#*&# I'm shivering!!!*

Step 4.

You just leave her alone now. She will lick off her fur dry for an hour continuously. You may lay newspaper and get her stay put there so that she wun sit on your bed or sofa with her wet body.

Make sure that she wun sit on the electrical applicances. Probably she thinks to dry herself faster. You neither want a electrocuted kitty nor spolit applicances.

*END OF TUTORIAL*

Tips:

Pamper her with treats and a pet on her head after she dried herself to encourage her for the next bath. And not forgetting to play with her for a while.

Here is Meeko's favourite treat and toys (arranged in priority to her favourite being the front).

*Lastly do make sure not to feed your kitty with chocolate or raisins. It's deadly.*

It may not be helpful as im the only one having a cat among my friends. But it's fun to bathe her and feeling loved with her cuteness! Till then..

Random - Barbie Lounge

2010-02-28T23:20:00.012+08:00

Came across this page when im e-shopping in Asos and just want to share the cute dolls here. Look how the Barbies transform into like everyone of us. (Or we dress up to become the moderm barbie.) All the Barbies were dressed in the basic black dress in different ways. I dink most of the girls own at least one basic black dress =) for easy matching with accessories.

Cute isnt it? From sophiscated barbie to chic barbie~

But not cheap la.. =/ not getting any so post here..
The doll costs UK$30 & the acessories (1 design out of the 3) costs UK$15.

Photos - Courtesy from ASOS.

the Sims™ 3

2010-02-21T23:19:00.005+08:00

Hello!

I was having a short chat with joanne on msn the other day so i would like to share one of my ways on how i de-stress from the excess unhealthy stress after a long day of work. Afterall being a workaholic is not easy.

* I hereby present to you THE SIMS 3 (TS3)*

Desmond got for the game for me in Jul/Aug 09. Im not sure why he insist to buy for me. (probably he want to me get obsessed in the game and forget about shopping and all) You all know me well i got in fact a doll house to play with. And i love the game immediately after i started playing as it like playing a reel lift doll house.

Left: Game cover - Basically you start with a character you created also known as SIM and you play along with it. I only managed to start my 1st game in late Oct 09 on and off. Then i managed to master some of the features and creating my SIMs family.

Right: The expansion pack whereby you can bring your sims to travel in China, Eygpt and France and interesting activities which desmond got for me in last year Christmas.

*My SIMs - Leanne Woods & Desmond Clover fighting a fire occurring in their kitchen.*

*A burglar broken into their new house. Luckily with alarm installed - Sound reel*

*The story is being played at this world created by TS3 called Sunset Valley*

*My SIMs eventually got married and begins with the Clover Legacy*

*Entering parent hood with their 2nd child here, Hailey Clover*

*Leanne: "Great isnt it - Catch us at LJ!"*

Besides playing the game, I have taken up writing in making use of the screen shots taken while playing the game and create the stories as my game progress. I have uploaded them to the TS3 website for people to read but the website sux sometimes. Especially you wan to save and publish the story then it simply didnt load and refresh to the new page (and you cant save as draft).

Like one of my fave author - Aoxa (check her out at my affilates), i moved my stories to LJ. You can read browse through them if you got nothing to do (check the sites out @ the link under my profile pic). Cant wait to post the new chapter out as i alr taken tonnes of screenshots.

However this is still a private blog here, i wont link the LJ to here =). Anyway i hope you have a great weekend. I blog again soon.

Year of Meeko

2010-02-17T01:04:00.011+08:00

虎虎生威！

Didnt manage to get meeko in any outfit or any background with CNY. Coz she will commit suicide with all the clothing on her.

After Papa has left, i have to admit that without any homemade cooked food by him and umpteen times of steamboat, CNY is just a public holiday. We went to pay him a respect at the temple during the eve. Still unable to hold my tears when i saw his photo on the urn.

Anyway last year i had a wardrode malfunction on Chu 2 (where my auntie came unexpectedly) This year, i cant wear my dress in Nude colour in Chu 1 as VPL (visible panty line) can be seen. No matter diff type of undies i tried =X So i got no choice but to wear black on that day. Coz all my dresses are in black.

And i also missed meeting my swiss girls in Chu 2. Sorry vivien that for being MIA for all the 80 photos taken. Anyway still get to meet the rest of the girls at Lot 1.

Guess who i met while queuing for Sakae!

*shiying - We haven been meeting for more than 5 years?! My only primary school friend that i contacted. We really got to meet up ok! Make it for my birthday ba!

*with des looking all so grumpy coz he cant have his curry chicken and soft shell crab*

*with the girls after leaving Joanne's house*

*my vday present from des unexpectedly coz he spent quite alot for the watch*

Desmond's 28th Birthday

2010-02-16T17:39:00.008+08:00

Hello Everyone. Gong Xi 恭喜!

Anyway before i post anything for Feb. I have to back track to Jan as mentioned in the title.
I have celebrated with Des for his 28th Birthday @ Equinox! So we got seated at 6.30pm at the window seat. U know the window seat cost $20 more on top of the total bill?!.

*des looking at the menu with the ridiculous pricing*

The view for spectacular. With the casino still in making to complete this year.

We had freshly baked bread to start with followed by soup. The former (S Bisque) for him and latter (Consomme) for me. His was yummy. Mine was more like a herbal soup with mashed chicken "fish cake" in it.

*Our 1st glass of Moet Chandon - Champagne*

We din go for the full courses (which is 5 or 6) coz u will know why later. So we skipped to the main course. Prawns for him and lamb for me. Both are yummy. Loves the lamb. However, u can see that the 2 prawns are only a size of 4 cm in long and 1.5cm thick each which only fills 10% of des' stomach. =X

Lastly is the dessert. Chocolate for him and apple for me. Both are very yummy especially the molten lava cake in the 1st picture.

*My outfit for the day.*

Didnt manage to take a proper photo coz the waiter din manage to take a good one out of 4 photos taken! The total bill was S$331.33 (with GST)! hmm compare with Equinox and the buffet we had for our 5th year anniversary in Ritz Carlton last Sep 09 at the same amount. We both prefer the latter. Really worth the price for the freshly seafood and their speciality dish - the drunken prawn (and its soup). However, must book at least a few days or a week before for a weekend dining.

I also made an "effort" to book the ticket for this movie. I give a 4.5* out of 5*. Based on true story on South Africa featuring 2 of my fave actor. Morgan Freeman and Matt Damon. The movie is damm long. I don dink it is showing right now. But definitely worth the price to buy in DVD.

Before the movie, we went to City Link for a short walk. Then we saw clearance sale in the Moments watch shop turning into a branch for City Chain. And we got each other presents!

*CK for CK = Calvin Klein for Chee Keong*

*My 1st CYMA watch from des - priced at $1K++ but selling at 50% discount*

I also got a lil suprise for him. A birthday cake. I managed to lit the candle and suprised him when he came out from his bath.

*Happy Birthday to D.A.C.K.*

Going to miss him as he will be out of my radar from tomorrow onwards to 3 Mar 2010 for reservist. However, anyone see him in St James with his army friends during this period, please contact me. lol

tata 2009 & hola 2010

2010-01-16T15:36:00.009+08:00

Ending year 2009 with stagnant events of soul-searching and virgin trips.

January is a month of fighting with work issue and revolution of the new managers (me & bh) in the old environment.

Still fighting on in Feburary and suffering from post-losing-dearest-ones syndrome.

My birthday month, March, a great brithday celebration in chevrons with my buddies, babes, lovies & friends and lots of favourite gifts, esp the burberry hobo by darl.

April still working like a zombie. everything seems mono again.

My virgin trip to Thailand and on a plane with a touch of feeling so close with Papa in the cloudy sky. And papa's 1 year anniversary in May / June .Found the cutie fur ball meeko. She really brought laughters and joy in the house esp. to mummy. more to meeko again.

July - a trip visited grandma in M'sia. hoping her health is better.

Preparation of christmas gifts, more clubbing and online shopping ^$^ in August. Lady Gaga Concert. And obsessed with the game called the SIMs 3. Creating the virtual life in it to fulfil what i cant do in the present =(

September / October of unfinish work and struggle to finding who i am as losing self-confidence and drive in work. Our 6th year anniversary at fabulous buffet in Ritz Carlton. A good friend is lost during the office politics and witnessing the power of destruction.

Halloween Night Safari in November. New camera Sony T9 from darl as an early christmas present. Knowing more friends with aisyah. And i finally told them the "truth" and having a transfer in 2010.

Went to Sunway Lagoon in December and renew our marriage & relationship. Having mutual trust, respect and loving each other all over again. Signed up for wedding package with di GIO and trying of wedding gowns. Avatar the movie. Prawning on NY eve with vivien & joanne.

Putting back the past that i cant return no more. Tata 2009.

* * *

NO resolution set in 2010. Cos i know i wont fulfil. Why not let nature take its course.

When lil monster turns 21.

2009-07-17T15:10:00.010+08:00

[when lil monster turns 21]

she is a tomboy! always like to play wrestling ON me. always the black sheep when we got into trouble. she never fail to care for me when im sick. and when im well, she also never fail to get $ from me. lol

she is my sis aka lil monster who turns 21 today! time flies~ i still rmbr Papa said 'you can do whatever you want when you turns 21' I wonder wld he really says that he is here presently. But i think No as afterall we are always his lil girls in his heart.

To lishan,

Papa loves you alot, he gave you alot of things which money cant buy yet the happiness within are permanent. Right?

Happy Birthday and hope you can be a successful nightingale. But 1st you must learn not to overslept!.

With much love,

Lifang.

Blurest Moment of the Year

2009-07-14T23:42:00.002+08:00

[Blurest Moment of the Year]

Guess what i Wear today for work?

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if you still didnt notice, i wore 2 diff pair of shoes to work with diff height by 1/2 inch and when i realised it..too late. i have to stuck all the way till home. luckily nobody notice it until i told them~
=_='''

Face Memory Test

2009-06-23T15:10:00.006+08:00

[Face Memory Test]

i read Joanne's blog and went to try out my ability to memorising the faces. as im always good at rmbr the faces. Like, I will rmbr this person appear in this movie and that movie..blah blah.

here is my score:

A) Recongition Score (if you saw it)
My score - 91% (avg score is 92%)

This is a measure of your ability to remember the photos you've seen, regardless of the part in which you saw them. From all 24 photos shown in Parts 1 & 2, you recognised: 22 photo(s).

B) Temporary Memory Score (when you saw it)
My score - 77% (avg score is 68%)

This is a measure of how often you recognised a photo and matched it to the correct part, instead of just remembering which ones you'd seen. From all the photos you recognised, you matched: 17 photo(s) to the correct part.

Sleep scientists say that:
Recognition memory for faces is unaffected by sleep loss. A person who has not slept for as much as 35 hours can perform as well as someone who is not sleep deprived.
the area of the brain that controls temporal memory can be affected by prolonged sleep loss and/or ageing. So a healthy 65 year old who sleeps normally would be able to perform this test similarly to a 20 year old who has gone without sleep for 36 hours.

BUT the area of the brain that controls temporal memory can be affected by prolonged sleep loss and/or ageing. So a healthy 65 year old who sleeps normally would be able to perform this test similarly to a 20 year old who has gone without sleep for 36 hours.

In the section above you made 2 "false positive(s)". That is, thinking you remembered seeing the photo when you hadn't seen it before. Average false positive score is 1-3.

It is quite true as practically i got some difficuties to rmbr things temporay like 'forgetting to bring the papers that Vivien wants' which may dued to my countless nights of work. =/ but hey i still good at memorising things.

so how do you fare? (click to test)

Anyway im starting my 3 month course in early Jul at SMU. Looking forward to going back to school but this time round is WORK thn School.

祝我生日快乐

2009-06-13T01:00:00.001+08:00

[ 祝我生日快乐]

Sorry for the late updates, i know my birthday was almost 3 months ago, still...

This is my 1st time having birthday partee at a chalet. which is a typical Singaporean to celebrate their brithday or other special day.

Im pretty tied up mostly by my work, so my preparation work were mainly with my frds' help. So special thanks who make it happened.

- Booked Chalet @ Chevrons with XM's help on Sep/Oct 08 (which 6 mths before Mar 09).
- Bought thank-u-gifts with Aisyah & Vivien's help in batches.
- Birthday cake & BBQ with Carol's advice/recommendation.

Day 1 (27.03.09)

I woke up earlier 6.30am excitedly to cont wrapping for the thank you gifts. But i cant finished them in time, so ended up in their original packaging.

Liting & XM came to my place to take my barang barang ard noon so to check in at 12pm. Vivien helped to take the cake for me at Westmall. So we cabbed there and when we reached, thn i realised i saw the check in time wrongly. Should be 2pm. (luckily vivien was not here yet, if nt she will /*+$%#)

The chalet was WOW, is it the nicest chalet with well-equiped of appliances available. We even bought xbox to play. By evening, i have received a few smses that my friends couldnt make it for partee, antz, sean, william, huiwen, ben, jacq & family. Aww. i almost want to broke in tears as i only invited less than 20 ppl and which they are the best of my friends that i have over these years. And aisyah & may will be late, i mean really late (u will know why later..)

So joanne & weisheng came 1st, we changed into our outfit for the day 'PJ=Pyjamas' and busy camwhoring. Then we started to bbq the food with the help from the guys (many thanks to XM & Weisheng)

To my surprise, those who said that they cant come, turned up except antz & sean who truly cant make it. Im so happy to see them! Chloe was the highlight of the day, with so many 'aunties' and 'uncles'. She almost cant recongised me as im dressed in a nightie and wearing the sequin cat mask. She almost cried.

Everyone was waiting for the cake cutting session but Aisyah & May still have arrived yet! so we brought out our liquor and start playing the 'big/small card game'. So the losers of the 2 greatest or smallest of the cards had to drink half a glass of the drink. Despite being the birthday girl, i kept losing and by that time May (the latest girl) arrived ard 12.30am which is my actual bday, i alr drunk and kept showing off my cat mask and my shining-purple-kiddish-bracelet to everyone~

So the photos taken onwards, im in fact in a trance state, clearly knowing wad happen ard but unable to control my expression.

So vividly remembered that they sung bday song, i gave my thank q speech, make a wish, take photos, poke des' stomach, cut the cake, open up the presents, gave out the 'thank you' gifts and said bye bye to them! Then i juz lied down on the sofa bed waiting for the liquor to clear off then start playing a round of MJ with des, liting & xm! which i don rmbr if i won! but i still be able to clean the room / clear the rubbish before going to the room and playing xbox then dozed off.

But i really thank you for those who came and grateful for all of you as being my friends to help me in my toughest time when i lost my dad and being understanding and there for me. So i arranged this partee to thank all of u!

Day 2 (28.03.09)

Woke up late, was lazing ard the bed and being a happy girl, i even played football with des on the xbox, i even trashed him with chelsea! (for tt day only).

The swimming pool was just in front of the chalet, but i din bring my bikini =/ din know it is so practically near.

So des invited his colleagues from HQ to the chalet to chill out so I! prepared the food while he continue to brush up his football skills and the guests arrived.

It's sweet for them as they got me presents and a birthday cake as this is meant to be a chill out session. Most of them left after 10pm and leaving 2 of them and we played MJ! I WON!.. forgotten how much.

BUT nevertheless i had the fun but shall not plan any partee at the meantime, it's a tough job to collabrates everything!

* sorry pictures not available at the moment. editing still in progress =_=*

Meeko

2009-06-12T10:47:00.013+08:00

[MEEKO]

Side track abit - on my previous post, i have been trying to put thing together and i did! will blog more on my bday and my 1st bkk trip. nid to resize and edit the photos.

Back to this post, guess wad i have found~

This lost female kitten that caught my attention under des' blk was hiding in / out of the drain. A moment struck me that it is the gift from Papa (ok crap reason to get keep the kitten) and i actually brought it back to des' home. bathed and fed her with milk. she was so well-behaved when i bathed her.

Our parents learnt about the kitten and i tot they might be unhappy and objected esp my momma. I even try to convince her that is the gift from Papa because of its short tail as momma had been bitten by a revengeful cat twice after stepping on the tail. And they like her. Even my mum find her very adorable and help to feed her when im working.*blissed and heng ar*

We named her Meeko after some random search of cat names. I intially named her 'TOTO' (the Sg Big Sweep) in order to please our parents but she din responsed to it. So we called her the 2nd name we chose, 'Meeko' and she reply with a short 'meow' to acknowledge it.

She had a jab at the doc for for anit-ringworm growth in her stomach and the doc identify her as a breed of cat known as Manx from her short tail and her hind legs are longer than her front legs.

And true enough from the reading of this breed of cat who is interested in everything u do and hope to help / get involve on wad you are doing. She is a very KPO kitten and always on a hyperactive mode when she is out of the cage. Meeko still young so she tends to find our leg / finger as toys and try to bite/bite on them despite of scuffing / scolding her.

Still she always get her ways by looking at you with her round eyes and sweet purr!
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Manx_cat

Daddy's Little GirL

2009-05-31T23:43:00.003+08:00

[Daddy's little girL]

it is 365 days later. We've moved on ...

However the scene of the last night that papa spent still replayed.

But in fact he never left... my work has been tough as known to all. im trying to be someone tt wad they want me to me.. is drawing the fine line tt impt?

for almost 9 nine months sitting on tt higher chair is a painful yet an experience one. i kept finding myself and end up im wind up. On when Papa's lunar death anniversary, is drawing nearer, i realised tt i shouldnt bother or be bothered by wad happened in the office. I can be myself, do what I need to do. I do my best, the rest will leave it to wad/whoever to handle.

That is what Papa has repeatedly telling over the years since when i'm a kid.

I miss you, Papa.

Complexity

2009-03-07T22:30:00.002+08:00

[Complexity]

Hi all, here i blog again (once a mth) =X

From the heading, i dink you already expect i gonna talk abt my stress aGain!
Haiz, somehow getting a role like this is a GREAT challenge. I suppose i am lost and being cut off at some point. I try too hard that i got nightmares almost every nite!

All i know that i have to do my work well and not get 'poke'. Back to basic - learn and dont cut slack in your work.

[Upcoming Event]

It's none other than my 24th Birthday Partee!
Thou Im coming to 24 yrs 0o.
This is my 1st time organising a bday partee. The last bday party was organised by sweet vivien during my 18 yrs Oo.

So i set a theme for it! Pyjamas (PJ)
That should be a decent yet a fun theme i hope. Sadlly, some of them cant make it.

a short to-do list for myself to rmbr:
a) Confirmation list for the attendees
b) Order bday cake / buffet / bbq food for Day 2
c) Some Door gifts for the guys & ladies (vivien, status?)
d) Bites & Drinks

p.s.- darl, a burberry a year, keeps me happy!

CNY without Papa & Struggling at Work

2009-01-28T22:51:00.010+08:00

[CNY without Papa]

Dear Loves,
Happy NIU Year.

This year is different.
I misses Papa
The way he gave hongbao.
The way he stared at us when we were having reunion dinner,
not dropping our cutlery.
The thumbs up reunion dinner he spent his whole day to prepare.
He brought us to temples and giving us tailsmens which we tot were obiang

We visit him on CNY's eve with the gold ingots i folded.
The pain that still linger, keeps me moving forward.

Since Papa is not here, we have to stop our nightmare.
Mama's cooking!
Kidding, juz that it is not as Mmmm as Papa's.

*papa with steamboat & food in 2008*

So Des & i brought Mama & lil monster to Mayim (a restaurant @ WestMall).
Not that nice, not that cheap, not that full.
& we lost $150 in the MJ table!! ARGH

p.s. liting, when is our MJ?

[Struggling]

I am very depressed at work. Not dismoralise but was misjudged by a new team player (my staff). Simply because im young & the lil mountain of works going to him.

I am sandwiched by my Superiors and my players topped with the unfinished work. Cant released my bad mood properly, i often given des a cold shoulders then cried alone. Which i just did yesterday.

Is it a part of the corporate ladder? or Is it a sign to show just not a cut in this political circle being a team leader but a team player?

Gosh!! i miss my papa giving me his 'righteous' advices.

Last day of 2008

2008-12-31T15:32:00.002+08:00

[Last Day of 2008]

SORRY for those made efforts to check out if im still alive.
YEAH! for the last day of 2008 slip away while rushing my ever unfinished pile of work, i shall update the most memorable events as this a critical year that i changed drastically.

DOWNTURN
1) Papa passed away, it's actually 7 months he's gone. Living in memory of him, makes me feel proud that I have him as my father as he taught me his principle of his life. Sadly, and always u only learn when someone sweets to you has left physically. I hope he pround of me as well to see what i have acheive today.

2) Des cheated on me countless times in this year the bond of our 3 yrs relationship then had broken and still healing right now.

TURNOVER
3) Sucessfully appointed as Asst Centre Manager of the site since Day 1 being an attachment student. It's kind of stress with all the new things being so overwhelming. Team Management, meeting all sort on CON-mens but im really grateful to my boss that really give me opportunities to mould me from a demure harmless girl to a Monster (which des said). Because

4) Officially rom-ed with des, he may not be the guy that all my friends like, but he is my husband who understand me more than no one else. I just hope my new-built career and new-built relationship as husband & wife will balance well.

5) Grateful to those friends never fail to appear in my darkest part of my life. I am grateful & thankful for knowing you all.

No matter how well or bad this year is but I definitely learnt through the hard & fast way so to face the many challenges in 2009.

Loves & thanks to all dear ones.
Lifang (= ' ' =)

V

2008-09-10T15:31:00.008+08:00

[ V ]

I'm not feeling vexed, but Victory~
I got the 'temp' position.
I totally unexpected that would be me. That doesnt mean my fellow colleague under perform.

From my previous post, I think that i will not be the one. Kept thinking abt papa used to tell me "爸爸，给你胆。" & des' encouragement. On Monday, I heard some gd new that out of 3 ppl, 2 nominated me. Which makes me worse actually, coz i really don wan to disappoint them. The presentation keep on postpone till today. I did fine for my presentation but didnt pin high hopes on it.

Anyway im happy =) feeling a lil sense of achievement. That's also means I will face more ppl (esp those difficult ones) like the fizzy fuzzy Donald & nasty contractors! muz work hard, either i sink or i swim!

* * *
Goin for steamboat with des & his colleages =) my breakfast-lunch-dinner =(

100 days

2008-09-07T21:08:00.008+08:00

[100 days]

Helped Mama to get the stuff for Papa's prayers and folded the gold igots. I believe Papa is in Heaven but I still fold the igots, each fold is my thot abt him. Sometimes I wonder what Papa is doing, is he watching us over the clouds? Will he know that when we are thinking of him? It's so hard to get over him, especially I'm feeling down & dis-moralise at the moment. Besides Des, Papa is the other man where I can speak to him abt my feelings.

When I'm working during the late nights at home, I will look at my bedroom door where he used to stand & remind me to sleep early, or switch off my lights when i dozed off.

. . .

Anyway i was told to do a presentation & report and compete with my fellow colleague for the 'acting' mangerial position. It's a temp position thou but I would like to give it a try, even if I fail, I will learn from this rare opportnity.

But I alr lost half the battle coz most who knows gives me the answer that it will not be me. Pls dont think that they are 'bad guys' but they are being honest with me. I just feel upset yet I still need to do my best for my presentation for the alr lost battle. Which makes me even feel that it's just to show the decision for this temp position is 'fair'. Complex feeling to describe it. Im a lil glad when Des spoken something diff to me. still building confident & trust in him.

Back to work on my presentation. Wishing good luck is not allowed for this post.

ps. Sorry aisyah & vivien for not going dinner & not replying your smses promptly. Missya both.

Broken

2008-09-04T13:09:00.005+08:00

[BROKEN]

I want to write about the happy moments that i spent with my colleagues, the swiss girls & des over the weeks. But I was too heart-broken to do so at the moment.

He sent a bouquet of 30 roses to my office on Tuesday & also came with a pity looking cat. The bouquet named Donna Dolce denotes 'Sweet Woman' in Italian. We watched "WALL-E". How sweet it is. . .

- Far East Flora narrates.
"Words cannot begin to describe her alluring femininity. Her hypnotic charm renders you speechless. With these delicate pink & lilac roses, express adulation for your Donna Dolce, which denotes sweet woman in Italian. We're sure you won't be lost for words when she plants a tender kiss on your forehead after receiving this enchanting bouquet."

- In my opinion
"Words cannot begin to describe my anger. Your flirting charm anguish me speechless. With these delicate pink & lilac roses, express your apology to me. Yet, you still be lost for words when i plant a sweet slap on your cheek."

To Darl,
I'm seriously hurt, so i decide to pen it down that this is the last straw. I'm not wearing our wedding ring till the day, I could trust you again then put it on for me.

30 Sep 2008 will be our 4th year anniversary, which I'm so looking forward to it before that. Thinking back for the past one year, our relationship has been a lil rocky on & off, we neglected each other due to other commitments we need to accomplish. We did tried to make the relationship sweet again but it still fail when I found out you hid things from me throughout this year.

You are still the man that I ever want, but do not hurt me any further.

Perhaps the trip to visit my grandma at Penang. M'sia in Oct will do us good.

Nothing seems colourful at the moment.

FYI
He did not do anything seriously wrong but I do not want to wait for really something big to happen then to save this r/s. I just want to pen it down as this is my blog. Tangz Q in advance for your concern abt me but pls do not write/make any harsh comment about him or even confront him.

Papa 生日快乐

2008-08-26T23:08:00.005+08:00

[爸爸, 生日快乐]

Remembering. . . I treated Papa & family officially to Dian Xiao Er last year with my 1st job's salary to their famous roast duck (the one Aisyah said it's orgasm!). We always afraid of dining out with Papa coz he will always find the food too oily, too salty, or too ex. But for that rare time, he said it was nice, to his liking. We didnt take a photo to capture that moment, i still tot to myself that nvm we still have next year.

However, we do not have any more next year to sit around the table and eat together. We missed his cooking, we missed all his speciality dishes. i miss his sweet & sour pork which he will cook during those special occasions. Sadly, none of us inherit the skills to whip up those dishes. I guess it not just the skills he possessed but also his love to cook for his family. Beside those nice food he cooked, we also rmbr hw 'tasteless' his food were during the normal days. Coz he will only 3 method (boil, steam & occasionally stir-fry)& using only natural flavour, meaning no/very small amt of salt & soy sauce to cook his food. Deep frying & heavy seasoning were only be used during special occasions.

Today is Papa's birthday (lunar). des & i went to the temple to visit him & uncle chen, my dad's best frd with (DXE) roast duck drumstick, their fav ABC stout & mooncakes. Again i teared, touching the cold yellow urn which contains papa's ashes. Momma & shan cant make it as shan is down with chickenpox & mum nids to take care of her. . .

I miss you, papa.

Chikungunya Fever

2008-08-23T16:40:00.005+08:00

[CHIKUNGUNYA FEVER]

Dear all,

if you have seen the recent reports thru the media, pls take note of the symptons below :

1) Fever
2) Severe joint pain
3) Muscle ache
4) Rashes
5) Vomiting
6) Nausea
7) Fatigue

Currently there are no vaccination available so pls take care & if you have the above symptons, u should consult your GP and do a blood test! It's free @ selected clinics.

Been working straight for 2 weeks, yesh! even my sats & suns are burn. no time for des. Hopefully we will pass the test on tuesday.

shall update again =)

Posts

2008-08-11T11:19:00.008+08:00

[ 75 days later, 13.08.08]

whenever i tot of him, i will look up into the sky wishing he is also looking at me too. so many things i wanted to tell him. so does momma.

the photos that papa kept in his drawer. . .

Liting asked me, "what if 10 yrs later nobody mention abt your papa again?" Immediately, my tears rolled down & my heart hurts. we still talk abt papa and his funny acts/jokes. whenever i passby his bedroom, i wish that he is there, asking me to go over and massage for him.

Watched "Money not enough 2" last monday, it's abit crap at 1st but towards the end, the show got better, i cried & luff at the same time! causing me to have a big headache yest.

[ bb chloe & bb rachel ]

she is damm well-fed la. so adorable juz like her godma = ME =X really bring a smile to everyone =)

when to sean's bb rachel 1st mth last sat. a sweet bb.
a salute to both of the BBs' mums, for their endurance & perseverance during their 9 mths pregancy and for the many years to come.

[ Brazil in Singapore ]

It was not an exciting game coz 4-0. boo!! but at least it was fun seeing the talented players and knowing his comando/ humorous frd. haz.

[ pressies ]

i got this chic BEBE top from aisyah for my belated bday. tangz q aisyah! haven got a chance to wear after one wk of rashes, one wk of bloated stomach (full of shit).

i "supply" (my momma way of saying "surprise") des with a braun buffel wallet, a polo tee & a tangz Q card for being here for me.

of coz he also "supply" me with this lovely watch that i 1st saw it at jurong pt when i met chloe.

met vivien & kangwei to ikea tampines to do some shopping for her newly renovated bedroom & my stationery stuff. as aisyah & i still owe her a present. initially we getting a bed 'frame' for her. as usual, her 'creative-ness' she saw a CAT stool, so we get for her, as she uses it as a makeup chair!

[ Pervert! ]

damm idiot! i wore this dress to work twice!
that guy who suspected to wk here followed me and peeked under the stairs as i went up the stairs twice!
of coz he din cee anything as i holded my dress closed to my legs & i caught him peeping at me twice!
i was waiting for him the 2nd time, but he ran away. ROARrrr.

ok, i end the post with the pix of the week. . .
XL strawberry from US. one of the reasons why i cont to wk at PPWC.

Im sick

2008-07-30T11:25:00.007+08:00

[I'M SICK]

Sorry, i suppose to blog last week but im too busy at work & spending time with the girls & des.

& im attacked by Rashes when im winning at MJ!! & made 10++ trips to the toilet, might be the carbonara from Pasta Mania. Im better now, but body still aching which i dono why.

=_='' poor health mgt.

I try to blog again soon.

HAPPY 3.10th to Des, Darl love ya lots

Here is the pix of the week. =MEOW=

Quick Byte

2008-07-06T11:52:00.003+08:00

[QUICK BYTES]

1. W.e.f. 1 July 2008, i will be promoted to SPO (Senior Property Officer)
2. W.e.f. 1 July 2008, des got increment !! Again!
3. I got my supplementay credit cards from des.
4. I got my new Braun Buffel wallet.
5. I got new tops/ levi jeans/ dresses/ shoes/ bags.
6. Met vivien before her bday chalet. loves the sandwiches u recommended.
7. Met god-daugter chloe. . she is so cute. loves her to bits.
8. Met my poly-lecturer, eunice, "EU r NICE" i learnt not to take up all the probs myself, i'll try to practise what u said. =)
9. Met my ploy-buddies @ Chervons

& lastly

10. Des haven bankrupt yet~

Happy Father Day

2008-06-15T11:03:00.010+08:00

[HAPPY FATHER DAY, PAPA]

亲爱爸爸，

你好吗？我们都很好，不用担心我们。=)
对不起，我今天无法去看你。
来临的星期五，我会和妈妈去看你哦。

爸爸，父亲节快乐！"twist"

丽芳敬启

* * * * * * * *

[BYE BYE by MC]

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby,
Your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamma's, daddy's,
Sisters, brothers,
Friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky'
Cos we will never say bye

As a child there were the times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up some times
On Sunday mornings and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through
All the grown up things separation brings
You never let me know it, you never let it show
Because you loved me and obviously
There's so much more left so say
If you were with me today face to face

Chorus
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
“I wish I could talk to you for awhile”
“Miss you but I try not to cry”
As time goes by
And as soon as you reached a better place
Still I’ll give the world to see your face
And we were here next to you
It feels like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye
(Bye bye bye bye bye bye) x3

And you never got a chance to see how good I’ve done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together
I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It’s so hard to accept the fact you’re gone forever

Chorus
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
“I wish I could talk to you for awhile”
“Miss you but I try not to cry”
As time goes by
And as soon as you reached a better place
Still I’ll give the world to see your face
Am standing right here next to you
It feels like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye
(Bye bye bye bye bye bye) x3

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby,
Your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamma's, daddy's, Sisters, brothers,
Friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky'
Cos we will never say bye, bye

Chorus
I never knew I could hurt like this
(I never knew it)
And everyday life goes on like
(everyday of my life I wish)
“I wish I could talk to you for awhile”
(I wish)
“Miss you but I try not to cry”
As time goes by
(I wish, I wish, I wish as time goes by)
And as soon as you reached a better place
Still I’ll give the world to see your face
And we were here next to you
It feels like you're gone too soon

Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye
Its hard to say bye bye bye bye bye bye
So come on somebody sing it with me
Wave your hands up high

Hey hey,
this if for my people who just lost somebody
So this is for everybody
You put your hand to the sky'
Cos we will never say bye bye

My beloved Papa

2008-06-08T22:42:00.009+08:00

[ MY BELOVED PAPA ]

30th May 2008
Mama called me at 6.30pm, telling me if i can come home earlier, at the same time over the phone, I heard Papa calling me name "Li...Fang...." for a few times. I tried to leave at 7pm but I was preparing some material/wk to bring home to do over the weekends, ended up reaching hm at almost 9pm.

Fed Papa with his then fav drink, Ensure Chocolate Flavour & his medicines. Then i went to have my dinner, slacked abit to watch some TV thou Papa did called me to see if my dinner has finished.

Finally ard 10pm plus i went to keep Papa company. He told me that his body aching, which means he wanted me to massage his legs for him. While massaging, I noticed that Papa's moustache grew longer, so i told him "Papa, I help you to shave your moustache tml, okay?" He obediently nodded. As always he listens me.

Usually he will be aslp by 11pm plus, but tt night he couldnt. So i assured him not to worry abt anything. He told me he wanted to get well so he will not be a burden to us. I calmed him down, not long after Des came home. Papa told him again that he was sorry that he taken most of my time (spending less time with des). I played softly "Everything" by Micheal Buble, the song was joyful, hoping him won't worry abt anything, i rmbr vividly i did told him he's my everything.

31st May 2008
Shan was back, I was feeling tired, Papa told her to massage for him but she told him she wanted to slp soon. Nevertheless after a few "nagging", she massaged for him. Not long after, ard 1am, Papa had problem breathing. We tried to adjust his sleeping position, blowing the fan & provide more ventilation.. he started to pant. I quickly rang up the Home Care Hotline, the doc provided some advice, we did what we told but Papa's face started to turn purple & red patches started to show on his chest. This time he said he wanted to go to hospital. So I rang up the Hotline again for help. The doc recommended us to go to hospital and we arranged private ambulance to SGH. I prayed hard for him on the way with Des & Shan.

We reached hospital by 2am plus. After almost 2hr plus treatment, Papa warded to his bed. After doing the paper wks for admission & talking to the doctor that he suspected Papa's lungs could be infected, we managed to talk to him. Shan asked him if he's alrite, he weakly nodded his head, telling us to go home. We did went home for a quick rest and hoping to wake up in a while to visit him.

But. . .

We reached home in for less than 40 mins, i received a call from the nurse @ 6am that Papa's condition was not stable, so we quickly woke Mama up and rushed dwn quickly to hosp. I was very pissed as the cab driver complained when I asked him if he can drive a lil faster.. he did sped up a lil when he overheard Mama & Shan's conversation.

We were late by 10-15mins. Papa left us at 6.11am. I was devastated when I saw Papa lying breath-lessly on the bed. I blamed myself that why i din stayed by his side, why i slacked over the dinner. Shan & I hugged him despite Mama told us not get too close. . .

I apologised to him and telling him he was very brave and I will take care of Mama & Shan. I was upset that i cant promise what i wanted to do for him. When we looked up, we saw a big swarm of bees on the wall lighting above Papa's bed, it was very rare as we are on the 8th flr. I supposed they wun harm Papa. After saying the last "goodbye" to him, i infd the nurse that we were ready to send Papa for cleaning .

Mama informed to our relatives & Papa's best friend's family members. While i contacted the funeral services. I held up my tears as I needed a clear mind to sort out the funeral stuff. After Papa's death certificate was ready, we went to the mortuary to identify Papa. My tears cant hold when Alvin, the boss for the casket & funeral services company told me to tell Papa that we were going home. Collected the cert, the men from the casket brought Papa for injection and makeup while we informed our friends & went home to prepare Papa's fave clothing to wear and the rest to be placed in the coffin. Many memories flashedthru everyone in the house. We cried as we tidied up and packed his stuff.

Everything was ready & setup by noon. I broke down in tears again when i keen down and shouted "Papa comes to live in the big house" for 3x while Papa was carried into the Wake.
Papa then was sleeping peacefully. . . I softly told him Papa was a handsome boy, which i always say to him when he finished bathing /has a clean & shaven face.

During the praying session on 2nd night, with my eyes closed tightly, while i kept "talking" to Papa, I saw him waving his left hand & smiling happily to me while white clouds & blue sky surrounded him.

. . .

Instead of hugging him, i was touching the contour of his bones wrapped in red cloth. . Later the caretaker took his bones & placed them into the urn. Since most of the bones were in good shape, the urn was too small to hold his bones. So the caretaker took a sharp pounder & pounded the bones into smaller bits.. It crashed my heart at the same time. Finally everything was settled . . .

Breaking away from pain & suffering,

He left physically,

But never he leaves our hearts.

Lifang love you, papa. .

Appreciated to those who came & help at the Wake, the encouraging sms-es from those who cant come & my managers who allow me to rest at home tt whole week =) Losing a dear kin, now I value more all the people ard me. Esp my mum & des.

the birthday girls

2008-05-26T23:56:00.003+08:00

[ the birthday girls ]

happy birthday to
Jaqueline & Joanne

we are all 23!!! hahaz..

bleeding love

2008-05-25T05:34:00.004+08:00

[ bleeding love ]

You cut me open
And I keep bleeding, keep, keep, bleeding in love
I keep bleeding, keep, keep, bleeding in love
Keep bleeding, keep, keep, bleeding in love

I really bled inside with tears when u hide things from me again & again. I teared while massaging for papa at 3am. It's dark it the room, so he din know i teared. I managed to slp for a while till papa moaned loudly. Went to check on him, to find all the pillows, bao bao & blanket all over on the flr. He almost wanted to fall of the bed! Calmed him down and massaged his legs, finally he dozed off to slp..it was thn almost 5am.

. . . i think i better get some slp. lots of tasks to complete by end of the day. .it's now 6.40am.

#1: im sick of ur game. u hide, i seek. @ 3.32pm

Sandwich-ed

2008-05-22T00:17:00.007+08:00

[Sandwich-ed]

i understand that mama is also in a very difficult position.

she misses her mama (grandma) as she is now in the hosp. Her condition is critical, according to my uncle, her infected skin is bleeding.
she is tired, from her poor health and long hours of working & taking care of my dad when im not around.
but she shldnt said those upseting words to papa, telling him it's wrong to bring him home & not to trouble me at night (as im slping by his bed). . .

i understand how she feels, we are in the same rocky boat. my sis was helping minimally. so we are both sandwiched between our jobs & my papa. Taking care of him is real hard & tedious. nevertheless my mum alr cant take it but she dont want to trouble me as she afraid to affect my perfomance at work. i'm not angry with her, i juz want to channel out my frustration. i told her i never find it's a chores taking of papa.

if time can be donated, i really hope i can have a "time-raising" asking ppl to donate their time to me.

lotsa things

2008-05-12T23:28:00.002+08:00

(1) Happy Mother's Day

I gave my mum a hongb$o & heart-shaped ba qua =P, actually most of them were eaten by my sis & me in 1 day!

A big salute to her as she was one of the women (the other is my grandma) that i looked up to because of their characteristic. They are strong, as in spritually, & physically (for mama =x), hardworking & independent. I dink part of their blood are in me. =)

(2) New R/S with desmond

A bad start for newly named as husband & wife, when i realised i feel lost & somehow cheated. maybe i need to show him more concern, put him as priority b4 my work & equally impt as my family. But i feel helpless sometimes so i really got so many stuff to do. & becoz of his recently promotio, we seldom spend quality time together. I did tried my best to acc him with activities he likes but sometimes it seems effortless. Hope things wiill get bk on track soon..

(3) Critical Week for Papa

I was happy when i saw my dad swollen feets disappeared on Sunday & his bowels start to wk reg. But my frd who recently lost her grandma told me otherwise. In fact it's the symptons of XXX. But we have to reluctantly sent him back to the hospice till next wk when we make arrrangement to bring him bk to stay.

I miss him so much now. Last sunday, he even held des' hand n said "yao xiang qing xiang ai". I even dreamt abt him "playing catching with the happy ME" for the past 2 days consecutively.

I understand he will leave me soon & will eases the wadever pain in him. But it's kind of painful to see him go. . . *PAPA I LOVES U" (i told him tt personally).

(4) All my friends

Lastly, I have to say sorry to those precious friends who i din meet up with you all. (hopefully you all will see this) I really want to catch up with ya' all & my god-daughter, Chloe (i dink she don rmbr me le) but i really have no time now. I also apologised if i cant din call ya all but i do put my true frds in my heart.

shall end here. still have to train a new girl tml. luking forward to train her & heard she is quite pretty. =X

friends or relatives

2008-04-22T20:54:00.004+08:00

[ friends VS relatives ]

i looked up the definitions of

FRIENDS
A person whom one knows, likes, and trusts & one knows; an acquaintance.
One who supports, sympathizes with, or patronizes a group, cause, or movement.

& RELATIVES
Having pertinence or relevance; connected or related.

i'm super pissed with wad my mum told me yest. Coz on sunday nite, we were clearing some stuffs then my mum found a list of numbers (friends & relatives) that Papa keeps.

Initially she dont want to call them as we "lost" touch with them for so long after Papa was 1st jobless. But she decided to call them up to let them know abt my father's condition & they may wan to visit him. But they were insensitively doubted my mum, thot she was kidding & thot she wanted to borrow $$ from them. I even learnt that they call him "ah-gong/gong kia" since young. I dono wad so stupid abt my dad & my mum also dono they called my dad so...

We kept it from Papa if he knew how they react, he will be heartbroken.

On the other hand, Papa friends' & their families have always been helpful in every other way.. Papa always told us to return gratitute to ppl who help us one day. which i will for those who truly earns it.

papa fed the fishy today

2008-04-17T22:12:00.004+08:00

[fishy fishy]

Was quite unhappy after my sis put me areoplane. Purposely took half day leave for her coz she needs to go to the bank to settle her PDA. Then 10 mins before we meet, she said don nid le.

Thn i took leave for nth..i got alot to do at wk leh. So i went earlier to look for papa. Got a bag from charles & keith coz the bottom part of my working bag was alr lost its hardness after withstanding mths of heavy documents.

Anyway, saw Shan at the hospice. Papa said he wants to go for a stroll so both of us accompanied & took turns to wheel him ard the mini garden and the koi pond.

Papa wanted to feed the kois, so checked out the feeding time with the staff. The time alr past, 9am & 3pm. But not to disappoint papa, the staff offered some fish food to us.

So he carefully threw the fish food 1 at a time. He even asked us to wheel him to where the smaller kois were swimming so he can feed them.
*like turning back the time* we were small girls cheering when the smaller kois snatched the food frm the bigger ones..
He knew i'm taking fotos, so he asked me to wait for him to throw the food thn i can snap them fighting for it. *actually i was snapping him.

Later he said he had fun! =)

desmondfang rom ceremony & my 23rd bday

2008-04-16T11:17:00.005+08:00

[desmond & lifang ROM ceremony]

Sorry, I'm alr 1 month late to post the ROM fotos.

*our invitation card, front side - design by joanne*

*photos - taken by our photographer, thomas*

*cupcakes with our names - by cupcakesmomma*

*happy papa & his sweet girl*

anyway tangz q everyone for your blessings & pressies.
more fotos pls check out my facebook / friendster coz the space for the post is so small!

[my 23rd birthday]

my fabulous pressies.
*my CoacH wristlet from vivien & joanne*

*my Citigem pendant from Poly cum MJ buddies*

*my $100 ZaRa vouchers from ppwc' colleagues*
not shown here, coz i alr spent it on a white demin jeans & a shawl~

& finally. . .

*my Burberry check clutch from hubby*

Shall blog soon~
PS. Vivien get well soon from ur chicken pox!!!

Not easy

2008-01-08T01:00:00.000+08:00

[ not easy ]

it's not easy to seek any financial help.
Social Worker: Can you (my mum) get a better pay job?
Mum & Me: =_='''
SW: Can you (me) get a promotion or increment?
Me: (in my heart) you shld ask my boss not me?

How would i possibly know...!
None of the financial/medical assistance accept our direct applications even with the help of our MP becuz our "high" income.

it's not easy to cope with my dad's health.
a report will be out on thurs to determine whatever bad news or worst news.
it's hard & painful to see him in a weak state & mum upset face...

it's really not easy to put up a brave front

it's not easy to cope with my work & unexpected phonecalls from home/hosp.

it's not easy to be me..

[ a pinch of happyness ]

lil chloe turns 1 mth, her lil partee on 10/01/08.
+
darl turns 26 yrs old on 10/01/08.
+
ben & des birthday partee at swensens
+
wedding planning at sep * to be annouced *

baby chloe & sweet things

2007-12-12T21:12:00.000+08:00

[ baby chloe, the early christmas joy ]

jacq finally give birth last morning! Natural birth. So pround of her to endure all the pain and pull thru. her bb is healthy, radiant & cute. my sweet god-daughter =)

[my sweet pressies ]

PINK ROSIES & FELINE RING

lifang is sick & pissed

2007-12-06T20:30:00.000+08:00

[ Lifang is SICK & PISSED]

im sick, but i more pissed by the doctor!!!

i managed to finish my report (which is dued on wed) by tues nite, soo i can take MC on tt day but the doctor refuse to give me the mc at 1st..and always mistaken me!!!

Here it's goes..

1st experience
LF: Im having headache and pantadol doesnt takes effect on me.
DC: (checkups...) Dont go clubbing & Dont slp so late.. Youngster are like that.
LF: I seldom go to clubs... (i admit i slp late sometimes...)
DC: Dont smoke and drink...
LF: (=_=''') i don smoke and seldom drink.

2nd experience
LF: Im having red-eye & runny nose.
DC: (check...) nth wrong with ur eye, & don use aircon when you are sleeping.
LF: But my eye itches and i dont have air-con at home.
DC: Alright, you can go to work today.
LF: Can i go to wk?
DC: You dont want to go to work is it?! ... i give u 1 day MC thn.

3rd experience (tues nite)
LF: Im having flu & cough.
DC: (check...) ok, don use aircon when you are sleeping.
LF: I don have aircon at home.
DC: Just don use aircon when you are sleeping.
LF: =_='''
DC: Ok, you can go to work tml.
LF: Am i able to go to wk after i take the medicine?
DC: You dont want to go to work is it?... i give u 1 day MC thn.

PISSED OFF!!!
the reasons i keep goin there because this is the only clinic near my hse that my company subsides our medical bills. I wonder because I cee him FOC so he gives me this kind of attitude.
Im truly ill yet im mistake being some girls who wan to cheat MC.!!!

RRRRRRROOOOOOAAARRRRRRRRRRR

Im goin to complain this to SMA (Sgp Medical Asso.)!!!

And the medicines he gave me are will cause me to get drowsy & plapitation..so yest i was slping all the way.. & he still said i can go to wk. fcuk! Im feeling so weak today tt i nid to go n cee another doc (cost $42! & i will only get bk my $ after 3 mth), so i can get MC. At least this doc showed his professionalism. if i went bk to my company's clinic, tt idiot doc will definitely wun give me one & probably make another stupid critics abt me.

the power of cancer

2007-11-29T11:22:00.000+08:00

[ the power of cancer ]

. . .
for those of my frds who know abt my dad n showed ur concern. (TANGZ Q)
and very appreciated my CMs' help too.
. . .
right now, what i can do is be a good girL to papa.

my blog is up again.

2007-11-20T02:41:00.000+08:00

[ my blog is UP again ]

finally after several reminders from joanne & liting.
been doing the photo-shopped for the past few days to keep me from thinking too much.
everything seems to happen so fast.
- a tiff with des.
- daddy is ill.
*GOD, pls bless my dad with pink (good) health b4 he goes for his ops. Give him confident and we always be with him. amen*

I need to be strong & positive. He will be fine!!!
liting & jacq tangz for your listening ear =)

upgrading

2007-08-17T10:23:00.000+08:00

[ upgrading of love-foolsophy.blog]

changing a new skin soon. .
-currently photoshop-ping loads of fotos!

tangz darl for the software.

happy'ies & lil monster

2007-07-17T09:18:00.000+08:00

[ lil monster turns 19 today ! ]

the title says it's all.
the lil girL who used to practice her "kung-fu" on me.
the lil monster who always bug me for $ & mac-dees treats.
happy bday, shan =)

[ happy' ies ]

1. attended Liting bday partee on sat. the cake was nice * pear & carameL
2. darL & his team in the hockey finaL
3. pay increment.
4. compliment from the director of the association. the standard for cleaning has rised!

was truly happy to receive the happy news, but was alr too late for another increment =P
gratefuL for those who truly helped me along the way. thanks my CM, Johnny thru sms for his patience & guidance. too shy to say it infront of him. if not i cant survive in this big market.
& also to darL for bearing all my grumbling n encouragement!

simple truth reserved

2007-06-29T11:11:00.000+08:00

[simple truth reserved]

juz finished the meeting with the conservancy, trying to hold back my tears, coz seeing so many old uncles. some misinterpretation happened, as wrong msg was passed dwn. luckily, under my manager "enforcement" the company will re-deploy them to other site.

*lunch time soon. . our TM treating us sushi! yipee. obesses with sushi nowadays.

something to share. .
Before the marriage:
He: Yes. At last. It was so hard to wait.
She: Do you want me to leave?
He: NO! Don't even think about it.
She: Do you love me?
He: Of course!
She: Have you ever cheated on me?
He: NO! Why you even asking ? She: Will you kiss me?
He: Yes!
She: Will you hit me?
He: No way! I'm not such kind of person!
She: Can I trust you?
Now after the marriage you can read it

from bottom to the top

induction

2007-06-28T23:47:00.000+08:00

[induction day & fcuked up mood]

today is induction day.
something like an orientation event @ hq to get to noe abt the mgt, systems & new colleagues who joins in the family. my acm was unable to come, and i was there uber early, met pamela who was early too, so we went down to walk ard and get some drinks & choco. met ericia too!

*girl, we got ur present!, ceeya at ur partee*

called sean regarding the conservancy matters, got a meeting tml with the conservancy.
pretty tied up with my fsm site & the conservancy, moreover it's mth-end, rushing reports & helping my colleague to analyze the expenses for a major revamp for our cost budget. feeling so fcuked up esp when des went for reservist. there's no one i can lend me a shoulder to lean forward to.

okay lah~ at least i received compliments from my manager, johnny that i managed the conservancy contractor well, even their director is "afraid" of me.

speaking of contractors! i had an argument with the plumber (supervisor). of coz in the end i still win, but it makes me feel guilty to argue with him. and it's leads me to think of hw to deal with my fsm site. quoted from the PO there, the council "i want this fsm OUT!".
i was stunned hearing this.
damm.
i'll make sure i have it the right (MY) way!
. . . . .

*went shopping alone at vivo, was testing some perfume, & found one fragrances smells nice & long lasting. dior addict 2 - summer breeze. feel like getting it. i dink it has been ard quite a while in the market. sua-gu.

Graduation & Warning Letter

2007-06-16T11:47:00.000+08:00

[my graduation]

finally we got our certs last tue, 12/06.
we were all dressed in semi-graduation gown w/o hat
(coz we r only poly stds)
it's so hilarious, we seems like students from Hogwarts(Harry Potter)!
met my fave lecturer, Eunice Ng Yih Fung (LiFang),
she still seems so busy & skinny.

joined the 3 couples, nono & des.chia for carls. jr
then ktv session till 1a.m. (w/ ting&ben,wen&will,nono)
(imagine 4 out of 7 of us nid to wk the next day!)
but was worthwhile staying up late with them,
coz we never noe when we have time for such gathering again.

[above 60? Out!]

on the same tuesday, while everyone is enjoying
every bitsof the graduation,
my acm has helped me to edit my draft for my warning letter to our TC.
& when i had received my cert, they too also received it by then,
via fax, email, post, even by HAND!

it's sad to see those cleaners go by next Mon!
esp, when they see you, they will wave or greet you!
my heart hurts. my mind says, sorry. .

as we step into the working society,
we cee unfairness in life. like this.
the company knows the contract yet they go with it.
the cleaners are old yet the workload are heavy.

(when ppl are helpless, they seek religion. . . )
GOD bless them with health &
hope they will transfer to a better environment.
amen.

i miss blogging

2007-06-10T16:31:00.000+08:00

[i miss blogging]

i wish i can have more energy & drive to do my things.
so many things i want to pen down, but there's simply no time.
been slogging at work and wk til late, but i dono why the wk is forever that much.
anyway our poly graduation will be on tue.
so happy, coz i get to cee the girls and have a day off.

darl has been coughing badly, hope he can be better soon.

off to my unfinished wk.

*bless me with energy & time*

07/08 sat/sun

2007-04-08T23:15:00.000+08:00

[my sat & sun]

been bothered up by des' plans for uni.
i have been quite unhappy over it, it could be im
jealous that i cant study with him @ the same
time. & also i afraid our relationship may . . .
ting adviced me nt to worry & have faith in him.

i love sat, 070407.
i managed to clear my doubt with him.
& also come to a conclusion that we will save up for
next yr enrollment. =)

we went to Odeon Katong to do my FSM report
& brought him to ASTON to have lunch. =P
thn we went further down to have dessert.
yummy glutinous rice ball & yam paste.
& done a lil shopping, managed to get tops for work.
tangz Q darL.

his sis gave me a box of "xi bing" & canned pig trotters
coz it's her wedding soon.

*so sweet isnt it?*feel like getting married*

my sunday was all to cinenow.
went for meeting with jose, vince & ace.

thn off to CL & JE to test the guys.
was being a lil lenient.
so both of their marks were high.
only had the viet sandwiches for the whole day.

=X still gt one more guy,
but he's working on Thurs & Fri.
duno i can make it to NONO's bday,
coz it on thurs & fri i nid to give tuition.

alr lying on my bed, it's monday again.

ziyao's last day

2007-04-04T01:22:00.000+08:00

[work life_ppwc]

it was Ziyao last day yest. . .
still a lot of work undone.
cant blame him for not able to finish all the work.

haiz, Johnny told me that i have been
learning the wrong stuff from them, him esp.
let bygones be bygones.
im trying to make things better b4 sean come.
yesh. sean will be joining on board with me at ppwc.
he came for the interview yest. glad that he wasnt
shocked to cee the "working condition".
so ericia u don have to worry, at ppwc
they are more male than female here.
ooops, more uncles than aunties here.

anyway i conducted 2 row-calls on the guards, on Monday.
Expectedly, the result was the proof for Johnny to wag the
contractor hard. the guard even scolded "motherfucker"
in front of me. Die lo. Later in the afternoon, he came to
apologised to me & my colleague in front of our bosses.

Johnny told me that the arrears figures has dropped.
$300 000.00 in 3 wks gosh *pleased*, i asked johnny
whether i can get some commission for the money
i chased bk. lol of coz NO LA.

btw haiz..
last friday, a contractor was taking advantage of me.
he brushed my hair coz he saw "something" on my hair.
i was so shocked. i was too focused on the fire
extinguisher info tt i wanted to ask him.
sadly i din have strong reaction to his idiotic action,
& images of incidents in old days flashes. . .

last day @ cinenow & bday pics

2007-04-01T23:09:00.000+08:00

[my last day @ cinenow]

happy april's fooL day. din gt trick by darL today,

coz he was down with fever & a tooth ache.poor darl,

sorry not by ur side. miss ya lots.

today is my last day at wk, Cinenow.

not totally last day coz i still manning the hotline

for abt 2-3 times a wk. talking abt work.

everyday i am like going to war. fighting with alot of

unfinished work. was a lil unhappy with my

performance, and i am like an old maid, always scold &

nag my cleaning supervisor when i cee him.

"Jong here not clean, Jong where are ur men?,

Jong, u better remove these, Jong Jong Jong!!"

poor fellow.

still nid stuck with my monthly report,

haven start my inspection report.!!!

[ all 'bout my bday .II. ]

*wa lau my birthday still bully me*

*that's better*

*curly anne & straighty fang*

*snapping in the ladies'*

*cute kitty on my way home*

280307.ppwc.sweet colleagues.

*jap curry & salad by jamie*

*so sweet of them*

*cm, johnny & acm, pristine*

*my closest colleague, caroL*

280307.Chongqing Hot Pot.9 fun ppl

=( yingtao not here.

tangz for booking the wonderful rm for me.

it was very fun, esp. the manger sang me

3 languages bday song.

eng w. cantonese accent, cantonese

& hokkien (lifang how sei liao)

*spicy vs chicky*

*we are damm full, w/ the funny manager*

*my fang. bear*

bitrthday post

2007-03-29T12:56:00.000+08:00

[ all 'bout my birthday .I. ]

THANK YOU

for coming to the dinners.

THANK YOU

for all the msgs, sms, e-cards & hand shakes.

THANK YOU

for the presents, *esp the fondue set & the brown bag.

. . . . . shall update later

. . . . .slogging to work again

Results / Bday Annoucement / Fotos

2007-03-17T22:18:00.000+08:00

[ results! ]

*happy sha la la*
i got an A, des gt an AD* (only 2 ADs, congrats ben)
feel happy for darL. finally our hardwork paid off.
Long way 2 Go ~

[ my 2-II birthday ]

swiss girls' dinner @ 270307
venue: New York New York / Fish & Co. (tbc*)
time: starts @ 7.00pm

Invitees :
Jacq
Joanne
Vivien
Aisyah*

(will u be back by then!? let me noe, kay =)

fmb dinner @ 280707
venue : Chongqin Steamboat @ Tanglin
time : starts @ 7.00pm - 7.30pm

(or else, we will start w/o u)

Invitees :
ben & ting
sean & ericia
william & wen
nono & yingtao
vincent & his girl

genting, sore eye, huiwen bday, got sabo

2007-03-03T21:55:00.000+08:00

sorry for letting the blog to be stagnant for so long. . .

[our 1st couple trip]

i just went to Genting last Friday. a 3 days-2 nite trip with 2 more couples (ting & ben, huiwen & william). It was my 1st time there. for ppl at my age, i dink they go until don wan to go le. lol.

the weather was cool, the outdoor theme park was fun, except the "superman" ride. the black rubber cushion was super smelly, esp. after the rain. & a lil rash & itchness starts to develope under my chin since i came bk. * must be the my chin touching the cushion for 2 consecutive rides. =( hope it will go away.

besides playing the theme rides, we spent out $ on eating. out of all the meals we had @ genting, they were ex & not really as tasty as it seems, except the "lou hei" dinner we had. overall, it was a good get-together, the couples bond very well, esp. the girls (rite?!). . .we spent most of the remaining time on chatting (secrets & gossips!) and room games. (don get the wrong idea!, we were playing "murder", "heart attack" & the torturing chewing gum game)

[sore eye]

"fortunately" my manager had an infection on his right eye on tuesday and I got an eye infection too on wednesday!!! same side somemore!!! everyone was chasing me home, but i got so much things to do. got a one day mc on thursday but din rest much, spent my time on report & cinenow =(

[huiwen 21st bday.020307.]

a happy 21st birthday to this pettie & sweet girl.

william put 21 "magic" candles on the bday cake. expectedly both of them spent a long time to blow off the candles. lol. the cake was nice coz there's chunks of hazelnut between the layers of cake (not william's... =x).
tangz for inviting us, sorry that we did not stay long. my turn soon!

[my free saturday]

been very busy since i joined the company. after converting as a full-time staff, i have greater responsibilities, more reports to do & more deadlines to meet.

sometimes i wish i can be less dilligence / less hardcore / don be the tough guy. my finance colleague, Carol jokingly told me that i "zhuo huai hang qin", loosely translated "spolit the market". maybe dued to the operation staffs (all guys) are not so super hardcore as me. so i may be a lil difficult to work with and i just realised i got sabotaged by my colleague.

left wk @ 3.30pm, had my late brunch-cum-early dinner with darL at New York New York. it was yummy, love the waffle n ice creme esp. darl got me a shirt from G2000 and a skirt from Zara. finally i got a set of office attire after looking high & low & so much trying all these while =)

shall end here, hope to put the recents photos soon. take care everyone!

nothing to do

2007-01-22T00:20:00.000+08:00

[ nothing to do ]

actually i got thing to do, my final report!!!
but my writing materials are not with me & my thumb drive is overload!

received a package, a secure device from DBS to setup the online security for iBanking.
the gadget luks like a thumb drive, tot i can use it =_=
it turns out to be a " pager" that will generate random pin no. for me to access to iBanking whenever i want to. *sound cool, but seems bulky* hope i wun loses it*

anyway i wanted to do the setup b4 the registration closes, but the DBS page was under maintenace =/

finished ironning darl's clothing but i still cant slp. so thot i can diary some things here

*lifang had fallen sick*

on last monday - thur, fever @ 38.7.. symptons like sore throat & headache developed during the dinner @ yuki yaki. tangz ericia for pouring me plenty of ice water. by the time i reached home, i was shivering so badly that i din remove my makeup and fallen aslp with two heavy blankets covers on me

it's good thou. coz for the past 3 days, i got plenty of rest, no tenancy agreements to do & no phonecalls from the veg. uncles/ cunning aunties secretaries.

(the only wk is wkin @ cinenow. no choice cant take mc.)

*lifang attended her 1st invitation to wedding dinner, 190107*

it's my centre manager's aka SO's wedding @ Tung Lok restuarant, Shenton Way.

it was my 1st official wedding invitation, given my 1st wedding hongbao. n what's more! i get to wear the dress from GG5. *received good comments* unlike the last wedding dinner =(

the wedding was sweet. the couple luks smart & pretty,

no wonder there's a saying that "u luk ur best in ur wedding day."

photos of the loving couple flashed on the projector before & during the wedding dinner.

*at the POINT of TIME i feel like getting married! lol*

the welcome gift was a tangz Q card with 2 stamps with their wedding photos in it. *lovely*

food & customer service was so-so. des' uncle was betta.

will update the fotos once i uploaded the pics =)
ok dink my slpy-ness come le.zZz

birthdays

2007-01-15T13:14:00.002+08:00

[ birth-days ]

so many ppl having their bday this mth. my pocket alr burned a BIG hoLe.
last tue (10/01) was both James & hUbby birthday.

all the colleagues surprised james with a cake and forced him to take out the candle (which my colleague pushed it inside the cake) eUu.

after wk, met up with liting to get a cake and next to Pizza hUt.
the guys took so long to reach. we had sat there for almost 1 hr, luckily we were talkative!
it was quite fun coz all of us have not seen each other for quite some time.
esp NoNo, he shrinks! the service-crew were very thoughtful, they played the birthday song in Pizza hut, thn the manager brought out the cake to des. hahahz.

* * * * *
went to the dentist last sat to have my tooth taken! met up with des, tt idiot!
he tried to spite me coz he knew that i cant tok at least for tt day!
we went to sim lim, bugis then finally funan to get a digital cam. finally i own one! juz in time to take photos for Johnny's wedding and stuff.

* * * * *
back to work. . .
cant wait for dinner @ yuki yaki with the group =)

+happy 2II birthday to benjamin+

1st entry of 2007

2007-01-03T00:49:00.000+08:00

[ 1st entry of the year ]

* a very late wishes to everyone, happy 2 0 0 7 *

* hope u had a fruitful 2006, this year would be betta *

this afternoon, i was watching the SCV, the "horoscope" host said that Aries peeps will be the very lucky this year! and im an aRies! thou i dont pay much attention to this kind of stuff, but who doesnt like to hear the good thing?!

anyway yest i went shopping with darl @ orchard rd.

i got 2 pairs of shoes = 1 is a same pair of shoes which i alr had (but it's so comfy n nw on sale, so i..) + 1 to wear for my manager's wedding as well as his sis'

+ btw i alr gt a dress last dec, from GG5 which costs me $100+++

thn we went for movie, "Night @ the Museum"

it was a very nice movie! making all the young and the old luff so happily.

most of the movies ( which filmed in one pl e.g. plane, a house) that i watched are bad, prob they are either triller or horror movie!

thn we headed to his pl for dinner after getting himself a pair of "sandals' from newurbanmale (was abit ex but no choice he don have any footwear after some mischevous kids taken one side of his sandals)

and on our way back, we saw a . . . R a i n b o W ~

thou it was not very clear but it brought a smile to both of us, esp in the 1st day of 07 !

it alr 01:23am !! (juz nice when i luk @ the time on my lappy)
hugging him & zZz. . .

si bei du lan

2006-12-15T11:57:00.000+08:00

[ Si Bei Du Lan ]

hahaz. there is this young ah Beng called, Raymond, he is making everyone in the office MaD!!

last sat, i was handling his case for a shop unit. Basically when tenant rent a shop unit, he nid to do everything himself, including contacting the Singapore Power for electricity..blah blah.. My colleague alr told him b4 he came tt day & i emphasized again.

thn on monday, he came to complain why we did not provide for him? & he alr paid the rent..we are cheating his money.

i have been very polite to him since i noe he is an ah Beng.

yet.. he threw his temper to everyone who anz his calls. & ME!!!
he was saying " ni nong dao lim bei Si Bei Du Lan!!!"

whoa "kaoz" u dink i wan to make u angry. we alr told u zillion times le, even when u bid for the unit, the term & conditions also stated it.

i almost shouted at him. .

luckily my colleague took over the phone and after a few lil arguments, he settled it himself!!

* * * * *

bk to work shall blog later, when i don have any Tenancy Agreements to do! (which is impossible)

my first wedding dinner with des' family & sadness filled up the wk.

2006-11-28T22:20:00.000+08:00

[ sadness fills up my heart ]

i cried for 3 consecutive days. . .

on sunday, i joined des' family to his uncle's wedding dinner.
i was looking forward and even made an effort to get a top for tt day.

but his mum was not very pleased, coz i was not wearing a dress. . .
i did tried to try on a few but none suits be..tt's y i wore a top & my levi jeans.
end up. . . his sis lend me a black dress. a plain black dress... i really broke in tears..
coz it showed all my flaws. my collar bone, and luk exceptionally thin. . . & i nearly wore a big chunky necklace. .

when i got there, i wanted to cry, coz everyone was dressed in dress but all luk lovely. whlist i looked like a crow. i was very uncomfortable with my look throughout the nite. if i sit down, nobody noe whether im wearing a dress or bottom rite? some of his relatives looked at me, one commented that im very thin. =( of coz la, esp in tt dress )=
i have been luking for a dress, coz i wanted to wear for his sis wedding in May'07, but i couldnt find any at the moment. and since the dinner was held in a residential area, so i dink my outfit i wore wad very appropriate le,
but . . .

I DON CARE! I WILL DOLL UP NICELY ON HIS SIS WEDDING!!!

on monday,
my colleague, CaroL told me that the cat, BoBo, who always hung ard the kopitam was DEAD. i cried immediately, cried even harder tt it was attacked by 5 dogs.

. . .

later in the afternoon, my mum told me that my sis' hp bill was $160++ & she is going for her mission trip on wednesday.. which is (today). . .i wanted to scold her.. but she locked herslf up, coz she noes that we are all mad abt her. . . all my mum's stuff was all inside her room, causing her to sleep in the living room. i was realli mad and angry with her.

why cant she be a lil more sensible ?

do u know, u r one horrible girl?
u made mum cried, u made her pay ur shite bill and go for ur thai trip..
u even blame us for causing u to loss ur bond. if u work hard and save hard, thn u wun nid to use the bank loan. .
do u noe hw many hrs she nid to wk, so that she can pay ur bill n ur allowance.
if she wasnt there for u, will u still be here, packing ur stuff to thai?
U R A COWARD.. GOD WILL NOT LIKE YOU IF HE NOES WAD U DID to UR FAMILY.

U MUZ LOVE GOD AS MUCH AS UR PARENTS, COZ THEY ARE ONES WHO CAN GIVE U WARMTH iN THE ROLE OF GOD.

. . . . .

im realli such a failure. . .
i realli duno hw to be a good sister.

. . . . .

sometimes i feel like going mad, coz im damm tired, wadever unhappiness i juz keep it to myself.
i realli duno wad to do, but juz keep on crying. . . . .

sorry everyone

2006-11-17T17:11:00.000+08:00

[ sorry everyone ]

my apology to everyone who has make an effort to click on my link but still found my posting "we are 2 years old" still there. hahahahz

u noe la, im busy, even No. 2 busiest woman, Vivien has to book me 2 weeks in advance.
who is No. 1? me la~

*quick updates abt me*
- gt my hair coloured (eh 2 mth ago)
- met up with vivien (last 2 wk)
- met up with ericia & liting (last friday)
which was so fun~neva forget our GIANT meatballs. when is our next meet up?
- managed to finish my cost analysis report in time (satisfied =)
- just submitted my interim report (phew. . managed to finish it in time)
met ting & pam in sch, wanted to eat the rice bowl i missed so much but sold out.
so we chit chat a lil at the library's cafe. good that everyone did well for IAP.

my manager told me abt my mark on last tue. he refused to tell me hw much i gt, he juz showed me 8-fingers (meaning i gt 80 and above la) hahahz. he even wan to fax the mark sheet to hQ thn fax back to my liasing officer. (duno y he is so secretive) in the end he handed me the letter in the sealed envelope. (hurhur.. i gt 83 =)

des also noe his marks, he gt 86! whoa. good for him, even our AVP has full praises of him.

so we went to haagan daz for a lil treat. (again using vouchers =P)
but chocolate fondue was out of stock...whoa why all the food i crave for, i cant seem to eat them. even the lor mee stall also closed, when i finally get to wk in cinenow JE.
back to haagan daz. . .

so we ordered chocolate journey for me & banana split for him.
usually when the waitress served us the dish, they would say out the name but tt day, instead the waitress said "here's ur banana" to des. hahahahz so i burst out luffing.
the joke din end here, when we footed the bill at the counter, the waitress luk at me and said "banana" and luff at me (-_-''') and she started telling her colleague who was beside her. thn both of them started to luff at me. (fwah so funny meh, u r the one who say banana leh.)
alrite i gt misleaded. haz

so before u forget hw i look like.. here is a foto of me =)

this was taken during an inspection at the rooftop. my PE, mr. chia reacted like a dad, wanting to take a foto of his daughter in her 1st trip to the rooftop. im so shag, even makeup cant hide my tireness. there is one thing u cant cee from the foto that i was wearing 2-inch HEELS tt day. =)

okay i haf to go now. . des' 1st annual general meeting going to start le. . go n cee wad i can help.

have a nice weekend~

[ we are 2 years old ]

2006-09-30T20:52:00.000+08:00

[ we are 2 years old ]

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really a long relationship for both of us. thinking back. . .

* * * * *
at the beginning of our relationship,
some of my frds disapproved us, being a couple,
some stories created by backstabber,
frds disapproved more strongly. . .
- our relationship ended -
- because i cared too much abt others' opinions, rather than mine-
lesson learnt:
- It's good to listen to others' opinions but who knows better than urself -

thn. . .
i got into some bad incidents. . .
bad guy spreaded bad news abt me,
my friends believed him, rather than beliving me. .
only des stood up for me.
- our relationship continues. . . till now -

patching back is neva easy,
still some bumps & holes on the journey.
sometimes i felt like giving up.

thn things started to get better since.
his parents accepts me,
my frds like him,
& i'm happy.

he helped me coped with problems that i met,
regardless of finance or emotional issues.
he is always there. . .
thou we don't have much $,
we are still happy,
coz we are TOGETHER.

- another year had passed -

i'm struggling with work & school,
while he's busy with his hockey & sch/wk,
but we neva fail to be by each other' side.

HE always the 1st person i thot of, everytime.
he is already a part of me.
i hope im also a part of him.

when i lost my friends, he is there to console me.
when i only gt a dollar, he shares/gives his $ with/to me.
and not being calculative.
he put up with my unreasonable temper,
he showers me with Love.

for now, i want to say, " i LxXx you" ( in case all of u get goosebumps)
if you asks me whether i tot abt marriage with him? :
i'll says, " Yes, he is the one."

* * * * *

We still meet everyday despite our attachment.

But we have lesser time for each other.

Coz both of us are so tired that that we dozed off right away whenever/where-ever.

so i really afraid that our relationship will turn bland someday. lol .

anyway we din went to Paris Buffet as planned coz our pay gt delayed. =_=

but we still celebrated our day @ a lil cheaper way.

we went to Petals @ Hill Street for our dinner last thur. din celebrate on the exact day, coz he gt hockey event & i gt to work till late.

anyway, Petals, is where the SHAtec students gt their attachment there.

so they are extremely friendly but abit of discriminate us, & the ang mohs. they will be more attentive and concern abt them.

E.g. They pushed their Bervages Cart to the angmoh's table to pick the drink, thou he chose orange juice. Whilst, we gt our "cocktail" drink from the kitchen. =/

overall it's affordable & the food is not bad, especially the "seafood thermodi.." for my main course. will put up the fotos soon.

vomited + still constipation

2006-09-24T19:34:00.000+08:00

[ vomited + still constipation ]

ifang boo. . . useless me.

moments after i blogged on sunday night, i vomitted 2x.
attempted to go to wk on monday but my stomach contacted on & off.

so des left me at his pl & left for wk. he cant take off coz we're in attachment.
he gave me a call ard 9.30am to wake me up to cee the doc.
but i was to pain to get up. i tried another time ard 10am. i walked to the stairs to get dwn to the living room but..still so pain that i crouched myself & stuggled to bed. finally i managed to step out of the hse at ard 11a.m. managed to cee the doc. he diagonsed that i got a lil stomach/gastric flu. coz I didn't been eating regularly. =P

ok, don scold me le. . . sometimes i cant help it to miss my meals. okok... des will ensure me i eat hor.

tot after some medication, i will be okay, but who noe i still in pain on tuesday. no choice, still nid to go to wk. hahaz both my managers told me told me to go hm, i looked like a ghost. so Jason, one of my manager sent me back HOME. what i cant go hm..coz my parents doesnt noe that i'm sick. he insisted to send me to my blk, coz he afraid i would faint. lol

no choice, took bus to meet des at his wk pl, novena suite to rest there. managed to rest a lil there & the pl is sOo much better than PPWC. but cant compare a condo to a big market. lol

above fotos were taken tt day.
starting from left: nice but small swimming pool-> sickly me in comfy rocking wiremesh chair -> BBQ pit, like an outdoor kitchen.

reached home at usual k-o time, so wun get discovered & slept till the next day. nw im still in constipation coz the medicine stopped me from vomitting but also "stopped" the shit* to come out. =_=

on wednesday my manager, Johnny told me i will transfer to Kallang Mall. WHAT! i rejected the posting, asking him whether he can help me to reject it anot. wad de.. thn i haf to wake up even more early to wk & i heard that the pl is even more wu lu thn here..luckily, on friday, he told me that he has talk to the mgt & i will be staying here. lol .

finally i learnt something from PPWC. it was to prepare the tenancy agreement. but it wasnt easy, coz the senior POs arent keen to "teach" me. i had changed to TA 5 times. even the fifth time after i changed it's still wrong. and i only realised i nid to let the tenant signs a letter when i saw another PO asked "his" tenant to sign. they din tell me i nid to do stuff like this & that.
so i nid to call the tenant to come dwn again.. but he didnt come. whoa. nid to call him tml, if nt the contract may nt be renew. idiot.

HEY..

i gt a eating place to recommend to u guys. It's called "Orchard Yong Tau Fu" a shop solely selling Yong Tau Fu. located somewhere behind the bldg, United Sq.

yummy & cost $3.50 only. lol like those advertisment.

Q: wad is so unique abt their yong tau fu?

A: it's their special sauce/gravy that we dip/put in our bowl of noodle & stuff.

it's very very nice, unlike the reddish purple sauce we had. this is BLACK with sesame seeds, like "chi cheong fan" sauce. it is sweet & smell nice that we juz nid one small scope of it for our noodle, unlike the usual way, we nid to get a bowl n scope it n dip the whole fishball/crabmeat to taste the sauce.

okok. try it when u r somewhere near novena or meet * me * we go n eat~

: : our 2 yrs anniversary is coming soon. hope it's a nice one : :

my BMI

2006-09-17T22:04:00.001+08:00

[ my BmI]

just now, des showed me one of the articles in Newpaper.
"Fat Chance for Skinny Models", which is abt hw unhealthy models are.. coz they are so skinny. E.g. the supermodel, Kate Moss has a BMI of 16.9.

"Are you a size ZerO?"
Find out ur BMI (body mass index)
BMI= Wt / (HT * HT)

Results:
>18.5 : Underweight
18.5 - 24.9 : Normal
25.0 - 29.9 : Overweight
30.0< : Obese

so des asked me abt my measurements and calculated. . .
mine: (weight last taken in early Sep)
BMI = 42 / (1.65 * 1.65)
BMI = 15.42

"whoa, u r super underweight loh." he exclaimed.

almost everything went wrong!

2006-09-17T18:13:00.000+08:00

[almost Everything went wrong!]

hmm. still getting used to the new routine, getting more work to do, & discovering more defects everyday @ PPWC. =/

everything is not going smoothly.

tuesday:

had a tiff with my sis on SMSes. Lost my ez-link card, muz haf left it in bus 963. sianz, still gt value & my bus concession. Called the mgt of Harbourfront interchange but the bus-driver refused to help me to search for it. becoz this interchange is in-charge by SBS not SMRT & 963 belongs to SMRT. wad de fcuk! it wun take long ma..

purposely made a trip down to Harbourfront interchange during my lunch, to check whether anyone pick up the card.

AGAIN, the bus driver told me to is none of their business, check with the SMRT booth which was just an PC there for the driver to clock in/out the time & a telephone. WHO TO LUK FOR? i approached a SMRT driver & he helped me call Woodlands interchange to check, as 963 ends at Wlds too. But nth, missed my lunch.

thursday:

still receive no news for the card & i had topped up $15 for the bus trips in past 2 days, so requested to end wk earlier & made a replacement card.

thn met des for movie, Little Man, & he FALLEN asleep after the show started for 20 mins. i was watching it alone & luking at other couples cuddling each other, making me felt so upset.

he din even cheer me up after the movie.

friday:

released of the sch results. all B's & C's. expected an A for one of my module, but onli scored a B+ . my Liasing Officer, LO, Mr aAron came dwn to PPWC to cee whether im can still tahan anot, lol.

saturday:

spent the whole morning for the inspection report, hmm wasnt satisfied but i only got 2 hr to finish it. no choice. thn rushed again for tution. the student's mom going to add $ in the following tution fees. wee~ tangz her soo much, muz put in x-tra wk for Sharren le.

thn met des for dinner @ orchard. we had been walking for 2 hr but we cant decided where to eat & somemore such a long Q everywhere. we ended up @ at the kopitiam near his pl, eating "zhi cha" aka stir-fry stuff.

today:

missed the Long John Silver breakfast by 5 mins. des' ez-link card gt damaged. soo we went dwn to CCK to get the card replaced. damm, both of us spent nearly $150 on replacement & new concession pass. luckily still gt some partial refunds.

rushed hm to wash our office wear, if nt tml NO clothes to wear le. realised my sis haven mop the dirty floor. so hurried to get the chores done. damm tired. still gt loads to prepare for wk & the coming tution..

vivien: rest well girl, sorry cant meet up with u.

gonna write an entry to complain abt my sis, if i gt time. lol

week 1 at ppwc

2006-09-12T00:05:00.000+08:00

[ week 1 @ ppwc ]

no matter hw tough life is, i usually wun complain much. but for the past 7 days, i'm &^#!@*. everyday im doin data entry, filing & more excel works. " gonna drive me crazy le "

going for inspections are fun but the sight of the market, is eRr. i realli want to contribute something to PPWC before my attachment ends.

for the 1st time, i am feeling so shag. i nid to wk in the day, even at night @ cinenow HQ for 2-3 days, doin admin wk again, from 8.30am-9.00pm. i charge like a mad cow, rushin from one wk pl to another, thn still nid to teach tution. At the end of the day, i onli get the same amt of pay which i used to wk for cinenow during my sch days. RoOoARR!!
by the time i got home, it is alr 10-11pm. still nid to prepare stuff for the next day and so on.. i wanted to rest, but my dad will start asking to make use of my time to wk. later no $ la..still gt alot of bills la..can someone donate some $ into my bank acc? lol

thn i started to have my mood swing, because i cant cope with the new routine.

sorry darl.. sometimes i dink im jealous of him. coz he posted to a pl, which i prefer to be attached there. not because of the environment but i like to expose to people. i miss doin sales @ JE. at PPWC, everyone luk at me like a greenhorn & nth to teach me, but asking me to tidy up the mess (work) that ppl(ex colleague) has left behind. hopefully i can learn thru this process.

btw i met up with jacq on sunday for lunch at Lot 1, wanted to luk for jackie but she haven started wk yet.

anyway my centre manager told me that i will be post out to Fajar shopping center (shld be) to cover the PO who is going for his reservist. =_=

try to luk at the bright side of life. . try la..kay?

summary of the week & day 1

2006-09-05T00:42:00.000+08:00

[ summary of wk II ]

thursday:

my freaky body, making me so difficult to get a proper pants for work. i only bought 1 pair.

friday:

gave tuition to my 1st student. lol. currently giving accounts tuition. no choice, i really cant survive with my peanut pay.

saturday:

chilled out with vien @ one nite stand & she treated me her fav shot "cocksuckingcowboy", what a slutty name..lol but the drink was really nice. vanilla & caramel. the pl was quite boring, so we ended up sitting on the parapet wall on the bridge, near riverside pt & chat for abt an hr..thn left home for mama.

[ day 1 @ work ]

haiz. i thot staying in HQ is the most boring & toughest pl but who noes. . is ME who attached to PPWC.

PASIR PANJANG WHOLESALE CENTER

i noe u muz be luffing at me. . even my mum was luffing so loudly over the phone when she 1st heard it.

the good side: cheap veggies & fruits & nice colleagues.

the bad side: 1 hr journey to wk, very poor IT system, we are lilterally finding a file out of 1405's =_= mayank & ivan pls save me.. was too disappointed with the management there. i was chopping the company stamp on loads of envelopes, coz HQ haven send the printed ones. whoa...

the 1st day was alr like that. i still got 1/2 a yr to go leh, for goodness sake.

as for des, it is heaven. he attached to Novena suite. a luxurious condominum. but he has to 'bao ga liao" aka take care of everything, coz the 1 & onli staff will be leaving this wednesday.

so darl cheered me up today, bought me clothes & brought me to dinner @ thai express.

tangz Q darL ~

ZzZz..dragging my feet to wk tml.

summary of the week 1

2006-08-31T01:17:00.000+08:00

[ summary of the week 1 ]

monday:
vivien (purposely) dropped by my store & gave a bag of chocolates & candies. tangz babe. thou some flavour mix-up. hehe. really enjoy the chat with you that night.

tuesday:
accompany des to westmall to get a shirt for his "Students' Excellence Award Nite". i picked a shirt for him, just nice & it can be wear for our attachment too.

thn we went for KFC for our lunch. we were enjoying the chicken, the cheesy fries & our drink. . . WAIT, OUR DRINK. i found something.

is a DEAD BEE with yellow & black stripes, which u may not see it from here. gruesome. so i went to the counter and told the manager abt it. erm she gave me another cup. =_= so i requested for 7-up instead. clearer ma. haiz, it so gross that we din finish our fav whipped potato & we only took a few sip of the drink, becoz there were some black particles in the drink. errr. must be the drink dispenser was dirty.

later in the evening, did some editing for my sis's new blog. whoa so picky, still don like it. =/

wednesday:
trained the new staff to takeover my store =( not bad, hope she absorbed most of the stuff i taught her, hopefully vince will be pleased ba lol.

& it's our 23th month anniversary~ yeah.

thursday:
we will go shop for our formal wear today. hopefully i gt everyhting in a day. no time for any shopping le.

nw get some slp & wake up to ShOoPp.

a bad day

2006-08-27T01:19:00.000+08:00

[ a bad day ]

1. My trainee put me aeroplane.
- din turn up today, got so many wk to clear b4 my attachment.

2. My work schedule sux.
- everything is put on hold, because of my attachment.

3. My new pair of pumps (right foot) peeled off.
- i only wear it once & intend to use it for my attachment. gone le.

4. Wanted to get a drink but gt scalded by hot flask of water.
- a minor burn for my poor left thumb & index finger.

5. Dad furious, mum cried.
- angry because of my stupidity & insisted on putting my wound on to the running water, instead applying salt (weird theory).
- cried because dad being unreasonable Again.

Results: My swollen eyes.

all cleared

2006-08-26T01:19:00.000+08:00

[ all cleared ]

the 'big stone' in my heart has been put down, becoz . . examz are finally over~

attended the IAP meeting earlier on. i'm very looking forward to IAP all along but . .

the pay im getting for my attachment is $500 (it's peanut man!) & worse, the working hrs for weekdays: 9a.m. - 6p.m. & saturday: 8.30a.m. - 1p.m.

whoa~

like that hw to continue my pt job which starts at 6p.m. during the wkdays =_= "

like that hw to survive with my peanut pay. . .

luckily, my Liasing Officer is our very good lecturer, Mr. Aaron.

takes one step at a time ba~

but hey, that means i gt more free time, to catch up with my old times friends. (hopefully ba.)

1 more week for me get ready for my attachment.

better get cracking to do a to-do list and follow it by hard.

[ a day to remember ]

2006-08-22T14:07:00.000+08:00

[ a day to remember ]

haPpY biRthDay, PaPa!!

my dad is getting his senior citizen ezlink card soon~ so this means he is 60 years old today. hahahz. thou sometimes i find him more naggy than my mum & a cleanliness "freak", afterall he is still my kins for this lifetime. bless him for with good health & less naggy everyday. =P

Always be remembered inside my heart.
My Beloved Grandpa.

today is the 100th days that he has left us. Unfortunately, i'm unable to go and pay him respects again. i really want to go bk to m'sia. . .e x a m z. . . i love you, grandpa~

[ cutie ]

My block's void-deck is a good place to study, esp. for sleepyheads like des, lol. We studied till 4.30a.m. & woke up @ 7.30a.m. to get ready for sch. i can say the 4 hr revision @ the void-deck was nt wasted, at least 75% of the paper, we were able to answer them. yeah ~ i was worried i might not be able to rmbr anything because i was distracted by a lovely kitten @ the void-deck.

cute isn't it? cant identify the gender, coz it's so playful, kept hoping & running around. The ears are like radar, kept turning left & right to any sound/movement. Fed the kitten with the cat food that des bought from 7-11. hw i wish i can take it back home, aww. . . .

guess what, des told me that i resemble like the kitten. becoz, it has long limbs (front, like hands & back r legs), round eyes & Big ears like mine.
dots . . .but i don mind, coz i love cats. the kitten was gone when we went out in the morning, hmm try to find it later. . *yawnz* going to catch my cat-nap.

try this link: www.funnyanimalblog.com
loads of funny & amazing animals videos, esp the cat ones. "Cat obessed in flushing the toilet", "Cat in a bottle" & more.

bday foto part (i)

2006-08-20T03:57:00.000+08:00

[ bday foto part (i) ]

is the slideshow nice?

just received the fotos from ericia earlier on, there are so many sia & all are so nicely taken.
so decided to use "rock you" to complie them. having some trouble publishing them here, so post in the main content instead. =)

mixture of fun & sadness

2006-08-19T03:32:00.000+08:00

[ why am i always had fun & sadness @ the same time? ]

let's start from last tuesday (15/08)
we had our ba kut teh for our dinner & collected the flowers b4 meeting willam & huiwen.

*mng handbag for jolin & champagne-orange roses for xiu*

this is my 2nd time i bought flowers for girls. haha the 1st one was for vivien's 13th bday (if im nt wrong). i regard both of them as my very good friends. .
since the time was early & darl had $20 haagen dazs voucher, so we decided to go for ice-creme & alighted at tampines. We chosen Chocolate fondue as we haven try it b4. the feelin was SHIOK ar~there were 3 side dishes (the ice-creme, fruit-ies & the cakes 'n' cookies) for us to dip in tub of hot chocolate & the peanut chips. yummmy.

luckily we had the $20 voucher, becoz the bill was $40.30. we also sampled their new product, i dink was raspberry flavour, quite sweet. i was interested in the ice-creme mooncakes too, but a box of 4 costs $68, whoa. . i dink darl will faint if i wan to buy 2 boxes, each for our families. heex. i been twice to haagen dazs (this & the other one @ bishan) the service was as good as the fondue. the crews were very polite and helpful. it's kind of occupational sickness coz im working in a service line, so i tend to take note of this. it meant alot to the customers, right?

the timing was just nice as we finished it, so off we went to meet the couple and headed to the girls' chalet. they looked lovely in their black dresses. we saw so many food, but i cant eat anymore, if nt my pant will burst. . so the 4 of us played "dai di" while waiting for our friends to come. i was realli bad at it thou i got very good cards like "2's" & "A's".

by 10.30pm, almost everyone came even my bosses & colleagues too. the time gt abit bored after the cakes session, so my boss suggested to dance salsa, so he leaded Jolin the moves.. luckily he din ask the others/or me. i guess i will trip over and step on his toes =X we had took tones of fotos by the time we left. waiting for them to send me so i can upload them here.

Yingtao offered to drive us to pasir ris mrt. US = 3 couples, nt including himself yet. darl was so smart, he took the front seat and the 5 of us (sean, ericia, ben, liting & me) squeeze ourselves @ the back seats of the Vio. we were alr so cramped, darl still asked yingtao to drive faster @ the hump & the kerbs. so we were swinging from left to right while i was cursing him. hahahahz so funny. instead of heading home, we went for KTV with them @ cineleisue, coz i thot we rarely hang out together & we are going IAP/IHP soon, so it's a great opportnity.

It was fun FUN fun..
liting has a beautiful voice like lara's. i was amazed by her voice. realli nice. sean & darl were the noise distructing ones..they were nt singing, they were competing, whose voices were the loudest. ahahhaz... we sang nearly to 6am. *so tired* went straight home to slp. . i hope there are more of these gathering to come.

why am i always had fun & sadness @ the same time?
Liting, ericia & i had some girls' talk earlier (on the way to cineleisure). i heard something unpleasant from them. it turned out tt everyone noes abt it, even darl noes it too & they thot i noe it too but i noe NOTHING.

it happened in the 1st sem of Year 1, my frd had reported to our lecturers that im not doing my projects. i admited that i didnt contribute much in the projects then. as i got into some relationship probs & stupid stuff, which kept me from focusing in sch. i was sorry & did apologised my teammates & they accepted my apologies.

i was so shocked to hear from them, i regard her as my good frd & i neva thot she would do that. it neva came across my mind to report my frd/classmates either. We have been doing projects together for almost 3 years, & i had put in alot of effort into the projects. i was so hurt to hear that, all these while i was trying to make up for it and hope to do well in the projects, so to push up her grades. yet. .since it an old incident, i've only heard one side of it and moreover we are nt talking anymore, so no point of racking up. . but i learnt that doing things that ppl cant cee is nt hero, is dumb.

2 more papers to Go! done with FMM, guess wad the pp is damm easy, wad i studied almost all came out. BUT i blacken out. too anxious that i forgotten most of the stuff i learnt. so i wrote bits & pieces of stuff that i managed to "retrieve". hopefully everything goes well. . . got back my ENM (energy mgt) test paper., i scored 89%. yipee.

ps: this is a diary to me, where i can pour in my unhappiness & fill it up with the happy things.
& here, tangz pam for speaking for me, thou i don haf a good impression of her in the past.

In-Attachment Project

2006-08-15T12:53:00.000+08:00

[ IAP Yeah~ ]

Cant believe my eyes when i saw the email that i got into IAP, @ first i thot i wun be going, so happy abt it. Darl & i will be attached to Capital Internation Asset Management, CIAM, the company that des' sis is working at. The attachment starts on 04 Sept = )

But. . .

my fate & the whole class' fates still lie on the Mr. FMM, because he will make sure he will nail us down with his killer paper. Gosh..the so-called tips he gave us is the whole 3 chapters... Quoted from darL " Is the paper carry 500 marks?" so many things.. and the tips he gave us for the last common test, only 30% came out.

we went for movie "Click" by adam sandler & kate beckinsale. oh man, it's so funny and touching.. again i laugh like hell & cried as if there is no tml, luckily i din wear any makeup, haha. a MUST-Watch movie for those who haven, one of the best movies from adam sandler.

i got so many photos to post & edit but too lil time. . .

later will be goin for the girls' bday partee (jolin & xiu), hope it's fun.

get back to revision for FMM paper. i don wan miss my IAP because of this..good luck guys.

my sixth rebonding session

2006-08-02T02:44:00.000+08:00

[ my sixth rebonding session ]

my mood: as good as gold, because i can slack a lil this week =P

so monday 31/07, i went for my rebonding session near darl's pl. It's the 6th time, dink i have to depend on it for a lifetime. This time, it only took 3 hrs, unlike the past, i have to sit there for half a day.. Feeling great after having a refreshing look.

lookin like a dumb ass, especially with the 2 plastic covers that protect my big ears from the heat.

i look abit nerd with the fringe. (don be mislead by the photo, im not "topless".)

After sch & lunch, we went back to his pl for movie "Keeping Mum".
Acted by:
Mr Bean and the old lady from Harry Potter series.
Story:
It's talking about a pregnant woman who has killed her husband and his mistress, and put them in a trunk. She was later caught and put into jail. After her release, she has worked as a housekeeper for a pastor who preoccupied with his work and fails to realize that his wife is having an affair and his children are up to no good. So the housekeeper starts her killings again, to help the pastor.

She has killed a dog, the dog owner, the golf instuctor who has an affair with the pastor's wife, and dumped them into the pond.

Toward the end of the movie, the housekeeper turns out to be the mother of the pastor's wife. She wanted her daugher to have a perfect family... & in the end, her daugher also killed 2 workers as they want to drain out the water from the pond due to the serious algae problem.

It was such a bloody comedy~and we got to see Mr.Bean in his 1st sex scene, lol. actually i feel quite touched by the old lady for what she did for the family thou was abit sicko..lol

*yawns* headin to bed~

so stupid

2006-07-27T00:47:00.000+08:00

[ so stupid ]

im so stupid, where is my THUMBDRIVE?!!

i rmbr i put it in my bag before i K-O from work.

bloody hell.

nw i have to start-over again to do my report. damm it.

NAPFA Test

2006-07-22T01:34:00.000+08:00

[ Napfa Test 20/07, my no. is 44 ]

wah..my legs r aching after completing my 2.4km, running 6 round ard the sch running tracks. because of my stubborn-ness, insisting on running (not walking ok!) to complete the run whether i pass or fail, even though i was tired and lack of sleep...hehe..

At that point of time, i thot i will faint, then des will do CPR for me..lol nah.. i felt a sense of accomplishment after the run, even jacq completed her run too~ Sadly i still failed my 'sit-up', 'sit & reach' & 'standing board jump'. hahaz but nvm, as long as i got a 'partipated' in my transcript thn can le.

darL did well. He got GOLD & was the 1st one who completed the 2.4km run among the 60 participants. so pround of him~ (yaya des)

phew~ quite satisfied with my FMM project~ hope that Mr FMM will not be picky on us (he always gt that grumpy face) & give all of us better marks. Completed 2 projects le, 2 more to go! & there comes the exams & my attachment..

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As days are drawing nearer to the end of sch semester, i find that my social contact with my friends are very lousy. i supposed i gt too much pressure, esp nowadays.

Sometimes i wonder whether my friends would think, "why i always got a bitter-gound face?". i cant help feeling that im being left out in a conversation & i cant seems to start a new topic.. (like a block stuck in my mouth)..

looking thru my phonebook, i found that i almost lost contact with all of them, except a few. i am like friend-less. not being that i want alot of friends to surround me. but how much i wished life can be less "eventful", as in my current situation, so maybe my life can be more beautiful then. there u cee lifang crying in her room, feeling so helpless, another moment, u cee lifang like a mad chicken poking everyone, driving them mad~

i always know that my temper is getting bad to worse. but i cant help when it exploded. no matter how many times i reminded myself.

maybe i can invent a "temper control band" when i starts my nonsense ^@#?!*again, the band will tighten my wrist to remind me that i shld stay clam..whoa..brilliant.. (crap)

p/s : sorry des. made you angry again. tangz for being my listening ear & sandbag. i love you~

my right wisdom tooth

2006-07-17T20:43:00.000+08:00

[my right wisdom tooth & lishan is 18 le.]

shitty.. got a bad toothache for the past few days, been sleeping almost all the time. everything on hands has to put on hold. skipped my lab lesson with darL and went for lunch @ JP, thn to the dentist.

Lunch is not good coz i cant chew those hard stuff, and feeling forever hungry..
Dentist is not good either. I have to take a x-ray of my wisdom tooth, my gum and tongue hurts, coz i nid to squeese the x-ray flim, a size of by 3cm by 1.5cm, into my mouth and my mouth is sensitive to it. The 1st one was blur so i had to do the 2nd time. this time i almost wanted to cry. thn the worse, i nid to go for a mini operation to take out the stupid tooth, if nt it will push my other teeth to the front. & it costs $300-400. gosh.

Cee la, always like that, when im slightly richer, all the bad things will come and take my $ away.
just hope that the anticbiotics can make my gum & tooth better.. sobs..

&

hapPy birthday 18th
to my deArest sista, Lishan~

* din get a present for you. will make-up for u soon~*

rush hr.

2006-07-15T00:42:00.000+08:00

how wish i have the power to make the time to turn slower..
still nid to give trainings @ work and so much projects & assignments piling one after another, i just started abit of everything and the deadlines r drawing nearer..*nightmare*

guess im going to be dead by then.

went for movie "Pirates of Carribean, Dead man's Chest" with darL last wed nite. better watch it thn, coz by the time all my stuff r cleared, the movie will also finish screening. i've been seeing the trailer for several mths, finally the movie was shown. It's was nice, more like a comedy than the 1st one which had more action, esp the role of Jack Sparrow, always so funny.

juz now darl shown me a video of this blogger, blinkymummy giving her cats a bath @ www.blinkymummy.blogspot.com blinky & tiger are so ADORABLE. hw i wish i can bring Mimi home. =(

oh my.. is alr 1.00a.m., better to continue my project, if not i cant wake up for the Image & Ettiquette @ 9.15 a.m later.. hope it's not a silly workshop.

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Football,food & more food.

2006-07-11T21:00:00.000+08:00

Finally i got time to blog. . .
yippy Italy won! [was a bit slow, almost been 3 days after the WC]
i knew it, becoz whenever i want a team to win, it will lose. Like Portugal & Argentina. So dis time, i wanted the France to win, so the team i liked, Italy will WIN~
Hahaz, it's quite effective~

Yest darl & i went to Balestier Plaza to take some documents for my project, thn we went for movie, "Superman". The whole theatre was occupied by onli 3 ppl, both of us & one guy who came in after us. i almost gt a fright. =X the show was nice~ but tOo unbelivable. i still prefer Spiderman. heex cant wait for the 3rd one..
my legs are aching now after running half a round the neighbouhood yest. . die, thn hw am i going to survive for my NAPFA next week? lol.

hmm..supposingly, i shld enjoy eating durians after a year of craving, but after sharing 2 rounds of 8 durians in 24 hrs with darL, i dink i wont be touching them for some time, coz my breath is full of heavy durian smells.. yucks. too bloated to eat anything.

but "he" wont let me skip my meals, i still have to eat even thou im so bloated.

so today we went to Mad Jack @ Bt Timah for lunch.

Loves the Cake of the Day: Chocolate Brownie. my fav.

Price is reasonable and the food is quite nice, except my grilled fish. & there is no Cust Serv Charges, yet their services are great ~
*sigh* time passes so fast on every tuesdays [cos it's my Off day].

07/07 a day of girls talk

2006-07-07T23:37:00.000+08:00

i juz got home with darL after the guys' soccer game. Thou it's nt so fun for them but beehweee, ericia & i are enjoying our girls talk while waiting for our boyfriends. we just keep on talking until the guys wanted to makan.

earlier on, i attended the talk on IAP & IHP. im more interested in the IAP, which is attachment in companies, this way i can start wk earlier & earn more $. but there are only 18 vacancies for 30's of us. aww...hopefully darl & i can squeeze in..

07/07/06

2006-07-07T02:03:00.000+08:00

"why are you so persistance?" said Mr FMM & snatched away my paper, after i refused to do his work in his lessons and continued to do my ENM tutorials. "why cant you be flexible?" i thot, if i finish this easy one, thn i got the time to do your 'seems easy but difficult' tutorial.
and he got more 'mad' after he found that my friend also did the same tutorial as me.. he even 'threaten' to tear away our work. -_-''
It is not im not goin to do it, i just do it later, thou it's wrong to do other things during a tutorial class. =P ok i know im stubborn, darL.

was munching on my chocolate block, 'milk chocolate with roast almond'. yummy, i really nid some chocolate to chew on, especially for the coming stressful project weeks.

i had received my bursary thou not much, but at least i gt some "looose" money on hand =) so i thot i can go for the Tioman trip in August~ BUT i realised i cant take off, coz there mayb no staff to cover for me. & probably another mysterious bill will come out from my dad's drawer and eat up my ^$^ sianz i really hope for a holiday.. like the last trip i went to visit my grandma with mum, sis & darL. so homey~

Eventful days

2006-07-03T23:50:00.000+08:00

some updates . . .

got back my papers. quite pleased with the results as my effort is not wasted after nights of burning midnight oil. but i still fail one.. hahaz.. no choice. juz pray that i will pass for the retest.

i got a chance to sit on a wheelchair last friday (30/06) during SAM.
Lesson learnt:The moment you can feel for others, is when you are in the same situation like them. A mild slope & lil obstacles can make me panic. I nid so much strength to wheel it & the courage to face the 'normal' ppl.
We shoud admire the handicapped. *salute*clapped*

so it is the beginning of a new month, as usual everyone get their pay!! except me
momma bought durians home yest (02/07) yipee~ so i quickly packed up from work and headed back home with dar. delicious~ just keep on eating and eating until my momma said " that's the last one".

and more treats~ coz it's also darl's payday today. So he decided to treat me lunch at a dim sum "restuarant", mayim @ westmall during our 2 hr break. as usual, we ordered our dim sum and tried their 'glutinous rice wrapped in lotus leaves'. nice~ the rice is soft & with lotus fragrances.

by the time we finished our lunch, it's nearly 1pm. gosh we goin to be late for our presentation, so we took a cab to sch. thinking that it only cost abt $3.50 from westmall to NP but guess wad, our cab fare was $7.30. not to be calculative but the taxi driver exploited us by going not one round but 2 big round. but we were lated so we just paid & rushed for our class.

That was when i realised that i didnt double check the slides of our presentation. So it's did not went smoothly in some parts. I was quite unhappy but not because of my teammates but myself. and the more i seen the presentations done by other grps, i reprimanded myself more. my face become more & more black. Unintentionally, i dink i have made my teammates unhappy or they might think that im blaming on them. darl was angry with me too, as i couldnt control my temper.

All i could do was cried and more tears. Sorry guys. Everything is solved. I have apologised to them and cleared up the misunderstanding. Tangz Q Jolin & Xiu ~ Hope this will not sour our friendship.

- too much tension, made me snapped -

just received latest news from my sis tt she also nid to pay her sch fees. brillant, always give me suprises. now i nid to go out & rob a bank..

happy anniversary & vivien's birthday.

2006-07-01T13:56:00.000+08:00

Belated messages for..
Happy 1yr & 9 mths Anniversary to hubBy
: :you are my pair of invisible wings, carrying me thru difficult times: :
&
..Happy 21st birthday to Vivien..
it's a pity that i couldnt make it for her bday. i realli sorry.
ppl always ask me, "you really so busy meh?" " no money meh?".
yah im really tt broke sometimes and im really busy, so busy 24/7 that i dint have the time to cherish my friends. one by one i lost contact with them. at times i would want to contact them but im really tied down by my stuff. & i just dono wad to say to them, seems like a great gap between us.

cadbury chocolate

2006-06-26T17:50:00.000+08:00

According to news from channelnewasia:
"In the UK and Ireland, Cadbury recalled the chocolates on Saturday, as a precautionary measure after finding traces of salmonella coming from a UK factory."
and
"The 7 types of chocolates recalled in Singapore, they are Dairy Milk Turkish, Dairy Milk Caramel, Dairy Milk Mint, Dairy Milk 8 Chunk, Dairy Milk One Kilogram, Dairy Milk Button Easter Egg and Freddo bars"

Salmonella is a genus of rod-shaped Gram-negative enterobacteria that causes typhoid fever, paratyphoid fever and foodborne illness.

phew~ luckily they din recall Dairy milk chocolate with Almonds (my fave). hopefully there wont be any major problems.

lovely & loveseed

2006-06-26T01:23:00.000+08:00

i bought a HER WORLD mag few days ago.
*im someone who seldom buy fashion magazine, unless there is FREEBIEs~ hahaz. because u can only afford a mag, but u cant afford to buy anything featured inside it. (true?), so i rather don see them.
so the freebie is a sample of the newly launch perfume, LOVELY by Sarah Jessica Parker. & it's realy lovely, feminine & the fragrances stays throughout the whole day.

juz edited some photos =) this was taken at Arts House where darl's working there. he told me that it is the biggest loveseed. I was like "whoa, really? must take photo!". Naive me~, my idiotic smile~ i really thot it is real, until i knock on the piece of metal artefact. got fooled again. yea, it's the biggest "metal" loveseed
School reopens TML ! Sh** still got tonnes of things to do..

2006-06-22T02:41:00.000+08:00

today is mOmma's birthday~
got her nth, coz im..nt broke but my $ are tied down by my schooL fees, which might be dued by this month. & i didnt receive any news about my bursary. Everyday, i will open my letter box, check my email but i din receive any news.. haiz im such a useless person sometimes. .

2006-06-20T17:20:00.000+08:00

yest 19/06, dad has fallen sick, keep saying he wanted to die & he seems really weak. i prayed that he will recovered soon. i feel that he rather dont wk, he got so sick and ^ $ ^, since he started working.
and partly dued to his diabetes, hopefully the report is positive, so he dont have to go for brain-scanning. [which costs $800++]

finally~ i finished the book on Da Vinci Code by Mr Dan Brown. yesh like many people had said the book is more interesting. but of coz if the movie is to be flimed totally by the book, it will be more than the long 3 hrs. thou the movie did not show much details for the individual characters but it helps ppL like me, who are abit slow, to understand betta on how they solved the difficult crytex and codes.

to me, this book is a novel which may contained some true facts and fiction~ hahaz
tangz Q jolin for lending me the book.
hmm..read the prologue of Angels & Demons..seems like not bad...maybe can try to find in the rentals bookshop whether they have it anot. think is cheaper that way than to buy.