title: my first wedding dinner with des' family & sadness filled up the wk.
date: Tuesday, November 28, 2006
[ sadness fills up my heart ]
i cried for 3 consecutive days. . .
on sunday, i joined des' family to his uncle's wedding dinner.
i was looking forward and even made an effort to get a top for tt day.
but his mum was not very pleased, coz i was not wearing a dress. . .
i did tried to try on a few but none suits be..tt's y i wore a top & my levi jeans.
end up. . . his sis lend me a black dress. a plain black dress... i really broke in tears..
coz it showed all my flaws. my collar bone, and luk exceptionally thin. . . & i nearly wore a big chunky necklace. .
when i got there, i wanted to cry, coz everyone was dressed in dress but all luk lovely. whlist i looked like a crow. i was very uncomfortable with my look throughout the nite. if i sit down, nobody noe whether im wearing a dress or bottom rite? some of his relatives looked at me, one commented that im very thin. =( of coz la, esp in tt dress )=
i have been luking for a dress, coz i wanted to wear for his sis wedding in May'07, but i couldnt find any at the moment. and since the dinner was held in a residential area, so i dink my outfit i wore wad very appropriate le,
but . . .
I DON CARE! I WILL DOLL UP NICELY ON HIS SIS WEDDING!!!
on monday,
my colleague, CaroL told me that the cat, BoBo, who always hung ard the kopitam was DEAD. i cried immediately, cried even harder tt it was attacked by 5 dogs.
. . .
later in the afternoon, my mum told me that my sis' hp bill was $160++ & she is going for her mission trip on wednesday.. which is (today). . .i wanted to scold her.. but she locked herslf up, coz she noes that we are all mad abt her. . . all my mum's stuff was all inside her room, causing her to sleep in the living room. i was realli mad and angry with her.
why cant she be a lil more sensible ?
on sunday, i joined des' family to his uncle's wedding dinner.
i was looking forward and even made an effort to get a top for tt day.
but his mum was not very pleased, coz i was not wearing a dress. . .
i did tried to try on a few but none suits be..tt's y i wore a top & my levi jeans.
end up. . . his sis lend me a black dress. a plain black dress... i really broke in tears..
coz it showed all my flaws. my collar bone, and luk exceptionally thin. . . & i nearly wore a big chunky necklace. .
when i got there, i wanted to cry, coz everyone was dressed in dress but all luk lovely. whlist i looked like a crow. i was very uncomfortable with my look throughout the nite. if i sit down, nobody noe whether im wearing a dress or bottom rite? some of his relatives looked at me, one commented that im very thin. =( of coz la, esp in tt dress )=
i have been luking for a dress, coz i wanted to wear for his sis wedding in May'07, but i couldnt find any at the moment. and since the dinner was held in a residential area, so i dink my outfit i wore wad very appropriate le,
but . . .
I DON CARE! I WILL DOLL UP NICELY ON HIS SIS WEDDING!!!
on monday,
my colleague, CaroL told me that the cat, BoBo, who always hung ard the kopitam was DEAD. i cried immediately, cried even harder tt it was attacked by 5 dogs.
. . .
later in the afternoon, my mum told me that my sis' hp bill was $160++ & she is going for her mission trip on wednesday.. which is (today). . .i wanted to scold her.. but she locked herslf up, coz she noes that we are all mad abt her. . . all my mum's stuff was all inside her room, causing her to sleep in the living room. i was realli mad and angry with her.
why cant she be a lil more sensible ?
do u know, u r one horrible girl?
u made mum cried, u made her pay ur shite bill and go for ur thai trip..
u even blame us for causing u to loss ur bond. if u work hard and save hard, thn u wun nid to use the bank loan. .
do u noe hw many hrs she nid to wk, so that she can pay ur bill n ur allowance.
if she wasnt there for u, will u still be here, packing ur stuff to thai?
U R A COWARD.. GOD WILL NOT LIKE YOU IF HE NOES WAD U DID to UR FAMILY.
U MUZ LOVE GOD AS MUCH AS UR PARENTS, COZ THEY ARE ONES WHO CAN GIVE U WARMTH iN THE ROLE OF GOD.
. . . . .
im realli such a failure. . .
i realli duno hw to be a good sister.
. . . . .
sometimes i feel like going mad, coz im damm tired, wadever unhappiness i juz keep it to myself.
i realli duno wad to do, but juz keep on crying. . . . .
u made mum cried, u made her pay ur shite bill and go for ur thai trip..
u even blame us for causing u to loss ur bond. if u work hard and save hard, thn u wun nid to use the bank loan. .
do u noe hw many hrs she nid to wk, so that she can pay ur bill n ur allowance.
if she wasnt there for u, will u still be here, packing ur stuff to thai?
U R A COWARD.. GOD WILL NOT LIKE YOU IF HE NOES WAD U DID to UR FAMILY.
U MUZ LOVE GOD AS MUCH AS UR PARENTS, COZ THEY ARE ONES WHO CAN GIVE U WARMTH iN THE ROLE OF GOD.
. . . . .
im realli such a failure. . .
i realli duno hw to be a good sister.
. . . . .
sometimes i feel like going mad, coz im damm tired, wadever unhappiness i juz keep it to myself.
i realli duno wad to do, but juz keep on crying. . . . .
title: sorry everyone
date: Friday, November 17, 2006
[ sorry everyone ]
my apology to everyone who has make an effort to click on my link but still found my posting "we are 2 years old" still there. hahahahz
u noe la, im busy, even No. 2 busiest woman, Vivien has to book me 2 weeks in advance.
who is No. 1? me la~
*quick updates abt me*
- gt my hair coloured (eh 2 mth ago)
- met up with vivien (last 2 wk)
- met up with ericia & liting (last friday)
which was so fun~neva forget our GIANT meatballs. when is our next meet up?
- managed to finish my cost analysis report in time (satisfied =)
- just submitted my interim report (phew. . managed to finish it in time)
met ting & pam in sch, wanted to eat the rice bowl i missed so much but sold out.
so we chit chat a lil at the library's cafe. good that everyone did well for IAP.
my manager told me abt my mark on last tue. he refused to tell me hw much i gt, he juz showed me 8-fingers (meaning i gt 80 and above la) hahahz. he even wan to fax the mark sheet to hQ thn fax back to my liasing officer. (duno y he is so secretive) in the end he handed me the letter in the sealed envelope. (hurhur.. i gt 83 =)
- gt my hair coloured (eh 2 mth ago)
- met up with vivien (last 2 wk)
- met up with ericia & liting (last friday)
which was so fun~neva forget our GIANT meatballs. when is our next meet up?
- managed to finish my cost analysis report in time (satisfied =)
- just submitted my interim report (phew. . managed to finish it in time)
met ting & pam in sch, wanted to eat the rice bowl i missed so much but sold out.
so we chit chat a lil at the library's cafe. good that everyone did well for IAP.
my manager told me abt my mark on last tue. he refused to tell me hw much i gt, he juz showed me 8-fingers (meaning i gt 80 and above la) hahahz. he even wan to fax the mark sheet to hQ thn fax back to my liasing officer. (duno y he is so secretive) in the end he handed me the letter in the sealed envelope. (hurhur.. i gt 83 =)
des also noe his marks, he gt 86! whoa. good for him, even our AVP has full praises of him.
so we went to haagan daz for a lil treat. (again using vouchers =P)
but chocolate fondue was out of stock...whoa why all the food i crave for, i cant seem to eat them. even the lor mee stall also closed, when i finally get to wk in cinenow JE.
back to haagan daz. . .
so we ordered chocolate journey for me & banana split for him.
usually when the waitress served us the dish, they would say out the name but tt day, instead the waitress said "here's ur banana" to des. hahahahz so i burst out luffing.
the joke din end here, when we footed the bill at the counter, the waitress luk at me and said "banana" and luff at me (-_-''') and she started telling her colleague who was beside her. thn both of them started to luff at me. (fwah so funny meh, u r the one who say banana leh.)
alrite i gt misleaded. haz
so before u forget hw i look like.. here is a foto of me =)
but chocolate fondue was out of stock...whoa why all the food i crave for, i cant seem to eat them. even the lor mee stall also closed, when i finally get to wk in cinenow JE.
back to haagan daz. . .
so we ordered chocolate journey for me & banana split for him.
usually when the waitress served us the dish, they would say out the name but tt day, instead the waitress said "here's ur banana" to des. hahahahz so i burst out luffing.
the joke din end here, when we footed the bill at the counter, the waitress luk at me and said "banana" and luff at me (-_-''') and she started telling her colleague who was beside her. thn both of them started to luff at me. (fwah so funny meh, u r the one who say banana leh.)
alrite i gt misleaded. haz
so before u forget hw i look like.. here is a foto of me =)
this was taken during an inspection at the rooftop. my PE, mr. chia reacted like a dad, wanting to take a foto of his daughter in her 1st trip to the rooftop. im so shag, even makeup cant hide my tireness. there is one thing u cant cee from the foto that i was wearing 2-inch HEELS tt day. =)
okay i haf to go now. . des' 1st annual general meeting going to start le. . go n cee wad i can help.
have a nice weekend~
